Well Aware was founded in 2015 on the belief that a world in which we slow down and take better care of ourselves, others and the environment would be a better one. This wellness podcast explains how the energy we create within — our WELLNESS — and the energy with which we approach the world — our AWARENESS — are intricately connected and deeply affect each other and one another. Here, inspiring individuals who have designed a life that brings them joy share their stories and thoughts on topics like body image, minimalism, health, their connection to source, conscious consumption, yoga, daily habits, writing, art-making, and much more. It’s my hope these conversations provide a venue through which you can explore the dialogue with yourself, both mind and body, and the world around you.
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Do you remember that peculiar but serendipitous feeling when someone’s in your orbit, and you end up meeting simply by virtue of unplanned but repeated, consistent encounters? In 2019 it seems to happen virtually, too, and that’s the story of how Erin Telford and I met.
She and sound therapist Sara Auster—one of Well Aware’s very first guests who notably has a book coming out in the fall—have been long-time buddies. Two of my dearest friends Alex and Meesh completed their trainings with Erin’s teacher David Elliott and have since become breathwork facilitators. She leads breathwork events at Sky Ting, my yoga home base, a few times each year. When I reached out to Erin, she shared that she was excited because Well Aware had been on her radar for quite some time, and because of our many mutual friends. I suppose it was only a matter of time before universal forces brought us together.
We recorded our first conversation back in February 2019 and it was easily one of my favorite interviews. I was very sick and symptomatic at the time, which is one way to guarantee vulnerability… and by nature of her work and personhood, Erin shares from the heart. Not one minute after our sweet, much-anticipated exchange, my hard drive ran out of space and our conversation was deleted! Zilch. Nowhere to be found. I cried, I was embarrassed, and wanted to throw my laptop out the window. Erin, being the angel she is, responded in kind to my glitch. “Two open hearts can make magic twice.” A month later we had this talk, which was even better than the first.
I’ve experienced this type of breathwork a handful of times, and each one has been more profound than the last. Erin works with the breath and the body as corrective medicine for childhood trauma. The breath is through the mouth, a two part inhale culminating in a full exhale. The first inhale inflates the belly, the second inflates the chest, and the exhale is a release. Breathing like this for any length of time will activate chemical reactions in the body that are said to help us release stored trauma. Some people yell, some laugh, some cry, my experiences have included all of the above… if you do it in a group setting, I guarantee it’ll be a wild ride.
For the first 25 minutes or so, we talk about breathwork basics, and then we get into Erin’s journey and experience with the work.
This episode is for anyone:
We discuss:
If you’re turned on by breathwork and/or by Erin’s energy, she has a few offerings coming up this fall. The most exciting one is Sacred Terrain, a six-week healing journey into the landscape of your emotional body. With Erin as your guide, you’ll do breathwork and go inward to look closely at your patterns and behaviors, garnering the courage to shift where you need to. And if you’re lucky enough to be in New York or Los Angeles, you can attend one of her upcoming in-person groups. If not, she’s got you, you can attend her virtual online group in September.
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Articulate, headstrong, deft, hard working, self-aware, sensitive, nurturing, and collectively-oriented are all words that describe Owyn Ruck, the founder of Succurro. Succurro is a space that helps individuals as well as the collective regenerate humanity and reclaim a right to their own health. It’s located in East Meredith, New York — upstate, but away from all of the recent Brooklyn-transplant activity, claiming a space of its own.
Late last year I took an astrology class with Owyn through Succurro, and it changed my life. It was October, and I was in the beginnings of my healing crisis without even fully understanding what was going on. She opened up my eyes to a new way of thinking about astrology. Instead of rooting it in personality traits, she looks at a natal chart and sees potential and a clear healing journey, taking energetic cues rather than literal ones.
I’ve known about Succurro for a year or so, and I truly cannot remember how I came across it, but I’m glad I did. I was sucked into the mystery — the presentation on the website was so beautiful, their offerings were esoteric, and I wasn’t sure what to make of it. Which lead me to reach out to Owyn, and I’m so glad I did! In our conversation we discuss:
This episode will especially serve sensitive or highly sensitive people, anybody looking to open up their own healing center, and people interested in astrology and/or self-inquiry. Forward it to your friends, share widely, tag us on Instagram and let us know how this episode affected you.
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“When you get these jobs that you so brilliantly trained for, just remember that your real job is that if you are free, you need to free somebody else. If you have some power, then your job is to empower somebody else.” —Toni Morrison
To know Ryan is a privilege. He’s a good listener, a strategic thinker, is generous with his energy, and spends most of his spare time in service of others or dreaming of ways we can all be, at scale. His ability to do exquisite boots-on-the-ground work while holding a higher vision not only for himself, but for the collective, is as rare as it is impressive.
Ryan is a freelance designer, brand strategist, yoga teacher, reiki master, artist, creative director—a true multi-hyphenate, like many Well Aware guests—who has done work for Wanderlust, Daybreaker, adidas, The Numinous, Lululemon, and more. He’s also the founder of Aligned, a media company disrupting the way we think of well-being that’s focused on the collective.
Our conversation took place about year ago (if you want to know what happened between now and then, listen to The Big Update). It was fun to listen again and see how much had evolved and what still resonates. I met Ryan in the spring of 2018, right after he’d completed his first self-directed zine, Her Ferocities, which is perhaps the most beautiful and thoughtful zine I’ve had the pleasure of reading. He sent a cold email to my mindbodygreen address (yes, editors do read cold emails!) and after following the link to his work I knew we had to meet. It was a time when politics were grim, in the wake of #metoo, #timesup and #blacklivesmatter, that this beautiful booklet emerged.
In this episode, Ryan and I cover a lot of ground:
I hope you enjoy the episode! As always, let me know what you think. If you’re here reading the blog, leave a note in the comments, shoot me an email (I share my email address on each episode), leave a review on iTunes, or send me a DM on Insta. Find Ryan on Instagram at @ryan_lemere or through his personal website, ryanlemere.com
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Human design is a new(ish) way to learn about yourself. Like astrology, you need the date, place, and time of your birth to generate an accurate chart, which looks something like this:
The diagram above is apparently Beyonce’s human design chart :). You’re welcome. Believe it or not, everyone’s chart looks this crazy and confusing! Shapes, lines, numbers, colors, astrological conventions, and other terms (not pictured here) like “type” and “strategy” create a blueprint, another way for us to glean information about ourselves. After generating my chart, I was full-on stumped. I listened to a few human design podcasts and learned about the five main archetypes, but I couldn’t find a crash course in chart reading that didn’t exist behind a paywall.
I was also pretty skeptical. Human design purports to be a combination of the chakra system, astrology, the i-ching, Kabbalah, and hexagram that was channeled in 1987 by one man. While I’m still not quite sure how all of these work together, or even what “hexagram” is, I was curious enough to learn more. Enter: Erin Claire Jones. After my struggling with my health earlier this year and looking everywhere for answers, and learning to trust the voice within.
Photo credit: The Power Thread. Edit by Lindsay Mueller
Erin joined me for an episode that will equip you with some human design essentials that are difficult to find elsewhere. The first half of our conversation is human design 101. She reviews each of the five human design types in detail (generator, manifesting generator, projector, manifestor, and reflector), the strategy, the incarnation cross, the meaning of the shapes, colors, and pathways in between, and what happens when you don’t resonate with certain elements of your chart.
Then, we discuss how she came to human design, from her childhood and upbringing, to what she studied in college, to how she was introduced to it. She shares resources if you’re interested in learning about human design, whether you want a more formal training or you want to self-study. Erin has generously offered Well Aware listeners 10% off of a blueprint — a customized human design reading in PDF format, rather than a call or in person. Enter WELLAWARE when you checkout. The promo ends 8/21. Keep me posted on what you learn about yourselves!
Our main topics of discussion include:
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Erin’s blueprint offering
Erin’s instagram: @erinclairejones
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Erika Bloom is one of the most literate bodyworkers I’ve ever had the pleasure of working with. I trekked to her Upper East Side studio—which was kind of a big deal, because I don’t particularly enjoy venturing above 14th street—prior to our interview to see what the buzz was about. This was once upon a time in 2017.
Photo credit: Varley; edit by Lindsay Mueller
I had my (completely unfounded) doubts. The best somatic experiences I’ve had have come from scrappy yoga teachers or humble bodyworkers, not celebrity teachers who look like supermodels themselves. Expecting a challenging session on some combination of the cadillac and the reformer, I was floored by Erika’s process and intuition. She read my body head to toe, front to back, and silently decided on a gentle plan of action. We did some small, targeted movements for which the breath was central, but our hour together was focused on bodywork and release. Bodywork! I thought I came for pilates and there she was, giving me one of the best myofascial releases I’ve ever had.
Since that session, we’ve enjoyed several meals and yoga classes together. Our discussions meander from super nerdy-healing topics like how ancestral trauma affects our health and romantic relationships to practical ones like how to really listen to the body, what it’s like to live with autoimmune issues, and more. This conversation is one of those fly-on-the-wall scenarios, an accurate representation of what an hour with Erika is like.
Photo credit: Live the Process; edit by Lindsay Mueller
Another reason I wanted her on the show? Erika Bloom’s 600-hour certification program is arguably the most comprehensive pilates training in the world. Aside from the traditional mat and apparatus techniques, Bloom has modernized the training by including material from modern sources she’s studied, experienced, and trusts: Alexander technique, Body-Mind Centering by Bonnie Bainbridge Cohen, Zero Balancing by Fritz, the tenets of rolfing by Ida Rolf, and more. This makes our conversation—and any conversation with Bloom relating to the body, mind, and spirit—so rich.
Photo credit: A Wild Dove; edit by Lindsay Mueller
In our conversation, Erika and I discuss:
Thank you for listening and as always, let me know what you think.
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Photo of Jason by Lauren Koyln
I first stumbled Jason Logan’s work through the social media channels of Horses Atelier, a clothing line run by Canadian writers Claudia Dey and Heidi Sopinka, who happens to be Jason’s partner. His ink tests occasionally appeared on Horses’ Instagram and I liked them so much I started following his handle, @toronotoinkcompany, which started a slow burn obsession. This was probably 2012-ish timing.
Jason’s style was a welcome departure from the too-curated, desaturated, shades-of-white, minimal Instagram feeds I followed back then. It seemed like every photo had to be styled and edited and professionally shot, and Jason’s ink tests were a breath of fresh air, respite from the contrived identities we all (yep, myself included) were projecting onto social media.
Photo by Danielle Suppa of Souvenir Studios
I was also drawn to his experimental approach and focus on the process. He refers to his artwork at Toronto Ink Company as “ink tests,” which is a wonderful way to think about artwork (and everything?). Everything is a test because he is constantly brewing new inks in new ways, and in his process he releases expectations about how they’ll exist in artwork. If it sounds like a spiritual practice, it’s because for Jason, it is.
The Toronto Ink Company is Jason’s side project-turned-business, and his value prop is that he can make ink from anything. Literally anything. He started by boiling the husks of black walnuts to make a rich brown pigment, and then began to experiment with other materials. Now he makes inks from ash, hibiscus flowers, gypsum stone, turmeric, buckthorn sap, a rusty nail, and much more.
Photo by Danielle Suppa of Souvenir Studios
To me, the most enriching layer is that he pairs these abstract ink tests—stunning in their own right—with pithy, sometimes dark, sometimes delightfully nonsensical, catchy words and phrases like “know better” and “I mean what I say” and “working it out,” transforming each piece into a feeling. The inks, the handwriting, and the phrases all have a rawness that I find to be mysterious, authentic, and enchanting.
Jason shipped some inks for me to try around the time of our interview (September 2017), and I loved them so much that when I went to Toronto in the fall of last year, I bought one in every color and have been experimenting with them since.
Photo of Jason’s ink tests at Souvenir Studios by Mauricio Calero
One important detail to note is that this conversation happened … drumroll please … in September 2017. Almost two years ago! He’d just started working on his book, Make Ink, which is now out in the world.
While Toronto Ink Company is the focus of this interview, Jason is also the creative director of Horses Atelier, involved in the creative direction of seven (!) newspapers in Toronto, is working on a documentary, wrote a book, and is a partner and father to three kids. And he brings it all to the table in our conversation.
Here’s a preview of what we talked about:
Let me know what you think about our conversation and thank you so much for listening!
Show notes:
Fortnight Lingerie – Toronto-based lingerie brand
Horses Atelier – Jason’s partner’s brand, for which he is Creative Director
Make Ink: A Forager’s Guide To Natural Ink Making – Jason’s book
This episode is by request. It’s the episode I’ve been wanting to post but haven’t yet, for reasons I name below. This is also the episode where I deliver a 40 minute soliloquy, so if you prefer the interview format, feel free to skip today and hang tight till the next one, my conversation with Jason Logan of Toronto Ink company. No hard feelings.
Truth: I didn’t update Well Aware for the better part of two years. Why? In this episode, I explain everything. The yoga teacher training, the book deal, the demanding job, and the diagnoses that kept me from podcasting.
In considering what to share and when, a monologue about my own health journey felt iffy. Is it TMI, does it sound like a sob story, or is it simply unprofessional? I hesitated and mulled for quite some time.
Because of my transparent approach to Well Aware, it’s become a living, breathing audio record of my journey. This little ditty is (for now) too big a part of me to ignore, and it’s important context for the show. In sharing, I hope to participate in dismantling shame around chronic illness, to help redefine the relationship between work and vulnerability, and to fill you in on all the things going on behind the Instagram frame, behind the podcast, behind the book, and behind the byline.
Self-healing, self-study, and self-practice are often glamorized on social media, but the darkest days were the ones where I really saw myself. Self-discovery can be lighthearted and easy, and also lonely and challenging. It’s been a wild almost-two-years, and while I’m still struggling with the unknown, being back feels pretty damn good.
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Long time no see!
It’s good to be back and worth acknowledging that it’s been a minute (ahem, a couple years) since I’ve posted a podcast. There are plenty of reasons why that is the case—if you follow me on Instagram you have an idea—but to go through them all would be to monopolize this interview and, quite frankly, it’s too good for that. I will address the silence and all your questions in my next episode.
In case you’ve forgotten (and I don’t blame you if you did) Well Aware is an audio project that explores personal and collective well-being. I started it 2014 with a focus on fitness, mindfulness, and “wellness,” and intentionally included folks of all stripes: yoga teachers, artists, farmers, florists. The concept of what Well Aware is and what it will become has been evolving behind the scenes—admittedly almost completely inside my mind. Perhaps while Well Aware was gone, what you’re looking for has shifted too.
Well Aware has expanded. It’s now an audio project dedicated to the exploration of the inner spaces of creative people. The Internet and Instagram are home to many, many aspirational lifestyle websites: one can find recommendations for personal style, home decor, food and cooking, wellness, and more to learn about all the objects and clothing and physical things you need to lead a life well-lived. Well Aware purports that you are the expert on you, and the conversations are meant to be used as tools in the healing and self-discovery process. In the new season and in interviews moving forward, you’ll get a sense of creative process, the way people think, their mental furniture, and the personal practices that keep them grounded as they move through life.
Marlee Grace. Photo by Anna Powell Teeter and Jacki Warren
Today’s guest is Marlee Grace. Marlee has been an inspiration ever since I started following her @havecompany Instagram account six years ago, back in 2013. She’s an artist, a dancer, and she’s well-known for her @personalpractice Instagram. Recently New York Magazine’s The Cut estimated she started the dancing trend and I have to agree. What you may not know about Marlee is that she’s a fellow podcaster, she has a 1:1 counseling practice, and, since we recorded this episode her book, How to Not Always Be Working was published, she started working on another one, her online course Creativity and Permission launched (took it, loved it—she’s hosting the very last session July 1 – 27 and I recommend it), and she’s now hosting an artist residency out of a co-living and co-working space in Michigan. Most recently she’s finding joy in skateboarding.
As we were wrapping up, Marlee said: “This conversation has been amazing because it’s one of the truest peeks into how my brain works.” I hope that in seeing her process, you’re able to uncover bits and pieces of your own that bring you closer to yourself.
I’m so honored and grateful to Marlee for taking the time to share her knowledge, and for being so real about life.
Our chat includes, but is not limited to:
Remember when you listen that we had this chat in early October 2018—a little blast from the past—right before her book came out. Keep an eye on her Instagram @marleegrace to see the artists in residency and their art, and tag us both to let us know what you think of the conversation.
You ever really stop and think about that? Just do it with me for a sec, see what comes to mind. You might envision a list of personality traits, achievements, a mental resume, your book deal, the day you came out, your instagram following—there’s no wrong answer. I think the interesting part is whenever we’re asked about defining moments it’s always the “big ones.” (You can’t see me right now, but I’m doing air quotes.) I think about this a lot because whenever I have a guest on the show, I’m trying to figure out how to help them tell their stories.
And it makes sense, by the way. I love big moments, personal growth, celebrations, and what not. But the stories that are most fascinating to me are the ones that preceded the big day. When did you know you’d quit your job one day and start your own company? What shift happened internally or who inspired you to create an imprint on your soul that you’d actually act on? When you look at these mini memories, they are without a shadow of a doubt, moments that had your undivided attention.
And if you thread them together, it might look like a timeline of minutiae! But they’re not. To make that mental shift is sometimes so much bigger, scarier, and more vulnerable than unlocking the actual achievement, or the final product or big goal. Even if the moment was fleeting, you had to be an open channel: totally receptive and truly present. When you take a moment to reflect and notice the commonalities of the moments behind what defines you, you’ll see that they’re not so trivial. You’ll see how how being present shapes the future.
Staying present isn’t easy. If it were, we’d all be walking around enlightened and awake. If you’re afraid, or if being totally present is hard, know that hardship is fertile ground for growth. Being somewhere else, anywhere but the present, is robbing yourself of the full experience, of what life has to offer.
It’s a practice though! It’s not about being perfect and present all the time. I’m certainly not. It’s about coming back to. About reminding yourself what it is you’re here for, and what defines you.
That’s it!
Thank you all so much for listening. If you like the show, I’d love for you to leave a review on iTunes. Shoot me an email, [email protected], and find me on Instagram @wellaware_, and until next time. Be well!
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It’s been since June since I last released an episode—I missed you guys SO MUCH.
For anyone who is new to the show—WELCOME!—I’m Lindsay and this is the WELL / AWARE Show, where we talk about all things wellness from the inside out.
I also just wanted to say I SO appreciate your emails and notes and continued reviews of the show. There wasn’t a day that went by that I didn’t think about this space, and it was really a show of support and community that you all kept writing. So please keep writing! It’s so good to hear what you like, what you could do without, what you’re not getting anywhere else, all that good stuff.
Nothing is changing about the show immediately, but I do have a few things planned including some events—a few of you have been asking about the workshop with Jessa Blades. That’s still in the works. The long and short of it is our event space had some issues with flooding, so we’re waiting on a new space to be finished. It’ll be amazing whenever it does happen, so please stay tuned.
Question for you” would you ever want to see videos or do you prefer the podcast medium? I don’t have any planned—but I’m curious to see.
This season I have an incredible lineup. I haven’t quite figured out the order, but without giving too much away: we’ll be talking about hormones, plants, the best in non-toxic skincare, empowerment, and conscious consumerism.
To kick it off, today I’m chatting with Bess Matessa of Mojave Rising once again all about Saturn Return. If you’re in your late 20s or early 30s an experiencing massive changes in your life… Saturn Return is the astrological explanation behind it and this episode will be especially insightful for you. Even if you’re younger you’ll get a hint of what’s in store, and if you’re older you’ll have an explanation as to why everything changed. Also, regardless of your age Saturn is always transiting so Bess is sharing with us today how to capitalize on that energy. This is exactly what has been going on for me since June: I got married, got a new job, and started a yoga teacher training in the same week! And clearly, I underestimated how demanding each one would be. But more on that next week.
In this episode, you’ll learn:
You’re probably going to want to take notes—this is chock full of inspiration. If you want to follow along or tweet or insta at us while you’re listening, Bess’s insta handle is @mojave_rising, I’m @wellaware_ and as always, leaving a review on iTunes is so much appreciated, and if you want to say hi or chat I’m wellawareco (at) gmail (dot) com.
Coco (aka Nicole) and Olivia of Waiting for Saturday
Hi guys, Happy Fourth of July weekend!
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So… I’ve been thinking a lot about “me” time — what does it mean? Are you totally alone for some quiet time? Are you alone but surrounded by people in a park or city? And when you get that precious time, how do you spend it? That’s what today’s guests are all about — Nicole (aka Coco) and Olivia are the co-creators of Waiting for Saturday, which is a study of off duty style. And while they both come from a fashion background, they cover more than just style: rituals, habits, recipes … essentially the things that make people tick, the things they look forward to.
We have that in common — and while we talk about a TON, what was most interesting was their mentality about balance, and doing it all. All three of us balance full time jobs, friends and family, hobbies and our sites, so it was really refreshing to hear from another voice about they go about their lives, staying sane in the middle of chaos.
Among other things we discuss:
This episode is amazing for anyone with a side hustle or practice. It’s also for anyone who’d start one but doesn’t feel like they have enough time. It’s for people who are feeling stuck at work — even if it’s creative work. And it’s for anyone looking for a refresher — in their personal style or otherwise.
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Waiting for Saturday: Instagram | Facebook | Tumblr (!) | Pinterest
Linda McCartney book (Coco’s inspiration)
SNEAK PEEK: Next interview will be with the hormone whisperer, Alisa Vitti, author of Woman Code which is a book that completely changed my life.
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