Content warning: This episode discusses suicide, mental health struggles and traumatic injury. Please seek support if these topics raise concerns for you.

In this deeply personal episode of Secrets of the Underworld, Neil “The Muscle” Cummins sits down with Trent, who shares how a devastating childhood accident, family breakdown and years of mental health struggles pushed him into some of the darkest moments of his life.

Through it all, the music of DJ Alex K became more than just an escape it became a lifeline. Trent reveals the moment one Alex K song interrupted a suicide attempt, why the music continues to give him hope, and what he would say to the artist who helped save his life.

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She left Ireland with a one-way ticket, picked broccoli in rural Queensland, wore a pink hard hat in traffic control — and somewhere between the farm and the city, found herself standing in a Brisbane strip club on her first night, walking out three grand richer.

From topless waitressing at bucks parties to building an OnlyFans following from scratch, Ruby is refreshingly honest about the industry most people whisper about. She talks money, boundaries, the regulars who think they're exclusive, a Bali tattoo artist who turned up in her subscribers list — and the video that blew the power in her bedroom at exactly the wrong moment.

No regrets. No filters. Just Ruby.

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Before she was a WBC champion throwing punches on the world stage, Chloe Chaos was a shaved-head kid from Melbourne's outer north — taekwondo champion, angry at a world she couldn't make sense of and carrying a grief no twelve-year-old should ever know.

In this raw and wide-ranging conversation, Neil sits down with the professional boxer and all-round firecracker to unpack the story behind the name. Chloe takes us back to the moment everything changed — when her best friend Asia was killed by her own father the night before year seven — and how that single act of violence quietly shaped the fighter, the protector, and the survivor she would become.

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Content Warning: This episode contains discussions of child sexual abuse, grooming, domestic violence, suicide, and the loss of a child. Listener discretion is advised.

Eslana Lower has rebuilt herself from the ground up - more than once. Raised in housing commission poverty, subjected to abuse and neglect from the age of five, she left home at fifteen with nothing and spent years forging herself into a nurse, a midwife and a mother of four. She had survived everything life had thrown at her. Until the morning she lost her daughter Rylee.

Eslana speaks about Rylee's life, her death, and what it means to survive something you were sure you couldn't. She talks about the online grooming that went undetected, the Snapchat bullying that told her daughter there was no place in the world for her and the four months it took before the family could access Rylee's messages. 

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Resilience After Great Loss - Learning To Live & Grieve Simultaneously

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He grew up in Broadmeadows, survived abuse, lived on the streets as a teenager, and ended up in Boggo Road Prison at seventeen — and somehow came out the other side as one of Australia's most unique entrepreneurs.

Bill Edgar is the man they call The Coffin Confessor. For a fee, he'll crash your funeral and read the message you were too scared to deliver in life. But that's just one chapter in a story Neil could barely believe — from sleeping in shopping centre change rooms and bowling alleys on the Gold Coast, to house-sweeping the possessions of the elderly before the family vultures move in.

This is a bloke who went from a stolen school uniform to a 42-year marriage, from jail at seventeen to an internationally recognised career built on death, dignity, and telling the truth. Neil sits down with Bill Edgar for a conversation that's raw, darkly funny, and at times genuinely hard to hear.

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He came from Turkey with a background in boxing, martial arts and fashion modelling. He ended up on the Gold Coast — and for the next four decades, Jimmy Ozturk became the face of its nightlife.

Working across more than 30 venues as a promotion manager — from Penthouse to Rose and Crown, Bourbon Bar, Crazy Horse, Players and 21 years at Hollywood Showgirls — Jimmy built a reputation as the man who knew everyone and looked after everyone. Celebrities, fighters, international tours and the biggest names in entertainment all came through his door. And he treated them all the same way: with class, a suit sharper than anyone else's and a cold bottle of Moët.

In this episode, Neil sits down with the legendary Jimmy Ozturk to hear the stories from a life spent on the strip — the celebrities, the controversies, the characters and why after all these years, "Uncle Jimmy" still can't quite leave it all behind.

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Saurora is back — and this time, nothing is off limits.

In part two, Neil and Saurora go deeper into the world of disability sexuality: carers in the room, clients on the edge of suicide, and the kinks and fetishes that most people wouldn't even know existed. She opens up about losing her father just weeks before this conversation, the bullies from school now sliding into her DMs, and why her neighbour couldn't even say the word "sex" when he came to complain about the noise.

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She's worked with clients on ventilators. She's been briefed by mothers before sessions begin. And she believes disabled people have the same sexual needs, fantasies and rights as everyone else - they're just never allowed to say it.

Saurora is a sex worker, sexologist, and fierce advocate for disability sexuality. In this episode she takes us inside her work: the practical realities of intimacy with clients who have cerebral palsy, muscular dystrophy and spinal cord injuries, and why she believes shame is the real barrier.

She also opens up about her own story: bullied at school, sexually curious from a young age, raised by an alcoholic single mother she adored — and how her mum's death became the catalyst that made her stop hiding and start living out loud.

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Amanda Householder grew up inside the troubled teen industry — not as a student, but as the daughter of its operators. Her parents ran Circle of Hope Girls Ranch in rural Missouri, a facility that used religion, forced labour, isolation and physical abuse to control the young women in their care.

Amanda takes us from her earliest memories of life inside faith-based group homes, to the moment a TikTok video went viral and finally brought the ranch to the attention of authorities. She opens up about the punishment systems, the staff who stayed silent, the town that looked the other way — and the personal trauma she has carried for decades.

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*Content warning: This episode contains detailed discussion of domestic violence, sexual assault and coercive control.*

For sixteen years, Zoe lived with a man she believed was troubled but trying — a husband who attended church, raised a family and told her his mental health was to blame for his behaviour. Behind closed doors, the abuse was relentless: physical, psychological, financial and sexual. But the most devastating truth didn't come from police. It came from his own mouth.

When Zoe's husband confessed, he didn't just admit to an affair. He admitted to drugging her tea and assaulting her while she slept. What followed was a battle through the courts, through a community that took sides, and through her own body — which began to break down under the weight of years of unprocessed trauma.

Now, having waived her anonymity and co-founded the End I Check campaign, Zoe is speaking out — not just for herself, but for the hundreds of women across 28 countries who have recognised their own stories in hers.

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Marina Lacerda returns to finish her story — and this time, she goes deeper.

In this second conversation, Neil and Marina explore the psychological grip Jeffrey Epstein held over his victims, the chilling way he wielded power and control and how Marina's childhood trauma shaped her ability to survive what others couldn't fully comprehend.

She opens up about the abusive marriage she stayed in for years, the moment she finally broke her silence in Washington and the healing that only began once she found the courage to walk away from everything that had been holding her down.

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