Marissa Rose has spent 14 years as a paramedic — chased out of houses, holding arterial bleeds with her bare hands and sent alone to crashes in the middle of nowhere on her first day on the job. But long before the ambulance, she was a little girl making tea at four years old, hands shaking, never knowing if it would be good enough.

In Part 1, Neil traces the line from a traumatic, abusive childhood to the woman who spent 14 years running towards other people's worst moments. They cover growing up without safety, why people from broken homes so often become the ones who protect others and what it actually looks like to be thrown in the deep end on your first day on the job — solo, at a multi-car crash, 40 minutes out of town.

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Chris Alchin grew up in Western Sydney with big ambitions and a double life. By day, he was breaking records in real estate. Behind the scenes, he was deep in a world of bikie clubs, drug trafficking and serious violence — a world that eventually caught up with him.

In this episode, Chris gives Neil an exclusive account of how a kid from Penrith with a strict father and a restless streak ended up at the centre of a drug network, the moment a trusted associate became his undoing and what it actually took to walk away — for good.

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Jimmy Judge went from an angry kid in Townsville to Australian amateur boxing champion — then walked away from it all. Now he's a professional food challenge competitor with a growing online following, and he's about to step back into the ring.

Neil sits down with Jimmy to trace the full journey: a childhood shaped by his mum leaving when he was 11, boxing saving him from himself, winning the Australian title at 17 — then quietly losing the love for it. From bodybuilding to bouncing to the mines, Jimmy's path has been anything but straight. Now he's found his lane in competitive eating, and he breaks down exactly how it works — the water stretching, the flavour fatigue, the dehydration traps — after he and Neil tackled a challenge together the night before.

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DCM. If you know, you know. For those who came of age on Oxford Street in the 90s and 2000s, the name alone brings it all back — the darkness at the top of those stairs, the lasers cutting through the smoke, the bass you felt before you even got through the door.

Neil sits down with two of DCM's own — a veteran doorman and a DJ who played the room in its prime — to dig into what made this Sydney nightclub unlike anything else. From the fear of getting past the door to the white parties, the boat nights, and the moment that screen dropped to reveal a sea of people losing themselves to the music, this is a proper oral history from people who lived it. And just when the nostalgia peaks, the conversation gets honest — about the reunions, the empty walls, and whether you can ever truly bring something like DCM back.

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Karen Teasdale grew up in a small village outside Newcastle, raised by a mother with what psychiatrists would later confirm was a psychopathic brain. From the age of four, Karen was beaten with a leather belt, isolated from friends, poisoned, and gaslit so relentlessly she lost all faith in herself. It went on for 48 years.

In this episode of Secrets of the Underworld, Neil sits down with Karen to hear how she survived a lifetime of calculated abuse — and how she's finally found her voice. Her story is told in full in her book, Poison Kisses.

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Haley Robson was sixteen years old when she was recruited into Jeffrey Epstein's orbit — approached at a beach resort by a classmate and driven to his Palm Beach mansion under the pretence of a $200 massage. What followed was two years of sexual abuse, coercion and psychological manipulation that would shape the course of her life.

In this episode, Neil speaks with Haley about growing up in Miami, the childhood traumas that left her vulnerable, and how Epstein's network systematically exploited girls exactly like her — isolating them, grooming them, and weaponising their own needs against them. Haley speaks candidly about the mechanics of the abuse, the culture of fear that kept victims returning and the part of this story that rarely gets told: how underage girls within Epstein's network were pressured to recruit others.

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Megan grew up in Adelaide not caring much about school, not fitting in, and not following the rules — and she never really started. After a drug dealer boyfriend introduced her to a life where everything was paid for, she found her own way to keep it that way. What followed was a decade-long journey through Sydney's most notorious venues — massage parlours, brothels, strip clubs — working under one name and keeping her real life firmly separate.

In this episode, Neil sits down with Megan for a raw and candid conversation about what drew her into the industry at 18, the venues she worked at across Sydney's west and Kings Cross, the clients she loved and the ones she didn't and how she eventually walked away without looking back.

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Suzanne Salloum grew up the youngest of ten children in Mount Druitt, Western Sydney — the only Lebanese girl in her school, navigating relentless racism, cultural isolation and the weight of an immigrant family finding its footing in Australia. What followed was a life lived defiantly in spaces that didn't want her — she did it anyway.

In this episode, Suzanne opens up to Neil about growing up caught between two worlds, caring for her father from the age of 17 before losing him suddenly, scoring a role on Fat Pizza and why twenty years on she still won't lighten her hair.

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In April 2010, 21-year-old Pralav Dhyani was four months into his first voyage as a trainee deck officer when Somali pirates boarded his vessel. What followed was 332 days held hostage off the coast of Somalia — no contact with family, dwindling food and water, guns pointed at his head, and the devastating loss of a crewmate who didn't make it home.

Pralav takes Neil inside the moment the shots rang out, the terrifying five-minute window between attack and capture, and what daily survival looked like when hope was rationed just as tightly as the rice. He talks about the crew members who sided with their captors, the staged terror before every ransom negotiation, and the surreal moment a bag of cash floated down from a plane — and the pirates just vanished.

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In this special episode, competition winners Angela and Costa turn the tables on Neil — putting him in the hot seat with questions that cover 20 years of life in the shadows. From his first security job chasing shoplifters at Westfield Miranda to walking beside one of Sydney's most feared men, Neil opens up about the highs, the loyalties, and the cost of it all.

He talks about what it was like to be a target — for years. The drive-by at DCM where instinct alone moved him out of the line of fire. The moment his family gave him an ultimatum and he chose not to blink. And in one of the most honest exchanges the show has ever had, he talks about the night he put a hit on himself — because he couldn't see any other way out.

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She came from a small mining town with big dreams, a stubborn streak, and a whole lot of anger to burn. Desley "The Destroyer" Robinson was told girls don't box — so naturally, she went and became a two-time IBF/WBO World Middleweight Champion.

In this episode, Neil sits down with Desley for a full-circle conversation that covers everything: growing up in Moranbah chasing athletics dreams she couldn't afford to follow, sparring full-grown men at 14, fighting for a world title on a fractured foot and what it actually felt like to win the belt she'd spent a lifetime earning. She also opens up about life after the title — signing with Jake Paul's MVP Promotions, fighting in America, and learning to finally enjoy it all.

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