- 1 hour 8 minutesInst@Guru: Bentinho Massaro Ep 7 - Jade Part 2 “Leave Your Body”
We pick up where we left off in Part 1.
A kitchen in Ecuador. Two women looking at each other across an island with empty eyes. What follows is five months of Jade Alectra's life across four countries: Panama, Mexico, Costa Rica, the Yucatan - and through experiences that are among the most disturbing in this entire series.
In Part Two, Jade describes the second r*pe, a meditation played loud, a voice telling her to leave her body, and the moment she felt she had achieved something when it was over. She describes the balcony speech that severed her from home and everyone she loved. The entity attack triggered by the wrong pillows. The screaming over folded underwear that sent shakes through her body for the first time. Being used to recruit the next woman while starving for any warmth herself. The mask slipping at the whiteboard. And the long, brutal aftermath; the lost apartment, the lost job, the lost self, and the phone calls with Jacqueline, Keilan, and Jocelyn that kept her alive.
This episode also includes a direct discussion of trauma bonding and intermittent reinforcement. How the nervous system becomes wired not to escape but to return. And it closes with something I've needed to say for a while about the psychology of leaders who expose everyone around them while fearing exposure above all else.
There are moments of silence in this episode. They belong to Jade. Please sit with them.
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This is Episode 7 of Inst@Guru, an investigative podcast series examining Bentinho Massaro and the high-control group around him. The investigation has been ongoing for almost 5 years. This series is not over.The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything.
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Jade Alectra was a D1 athlete, a yoga teacher with 75,000 followers, a feature in Oprah Magazine, and a meditation practice she had built from scratch. None of that protected her.
In this episode, Jade begins the story of how she was recruited into Bentinho Massaro's inner circle - not through his teachings, but through the women around him. What follows is one of the most detailed accounts of pre-grooming, love-bombing, and psychological manipulation in this entire series. It is also the darkest episode we have released to date.
Jade describes the systematic dismantling of her boundaries, the mechanics of how a high-control group conditions its members through sleep deprivation, food scarcity, and enforced silence. She describes sexual coercion and assault. She describes what it looks like when two women, trapped inside the same system, can only look at each other across a kitchen and say nothing. There are no trigger warnings on this episode. This story needs to land.
This episode also addresses something that came up repeatedly when I was in the Netherlands watching journalists interview survivors - the question the press always asks, and the question they never ask. And it includes, my thoughts on a recent letter Bentinho Massaro published to his followers.
Bentinho Massaro has been invited to participate in this series from the beginning. That invitation remains open.
This is Inst@Guru, an investigative podcast series examining Bentinho Massaro and the high-control group around him. The investigation has been ongoing for almost 5 years now.The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything.
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This is part of my ongoing deep-dive investigation into the world of Bentinho Massaro - a Dutch spiritual influencer with millions of followers and a story that goes far beyond what's visible on his carefully curated social media. I've been documenting this for over four years. This is Keilan Part Two.
In Part One, we watched Keilan McNeil get pulled in. In Part Two, we go inside the machine.
This episode covers what life actually looks like inside a high-control group once the honeymoon is over. The distortion readings that never end. The psych unit with zero qualifications running psychological sessions on a hundred people. The retreat in Costa Rica where the lights go out. The 'fog of war' these organizations deliberately manufacture - the lack of sleep, the relentless introspection, the group struggle sessions - designed to keep people too disoriented to leave. And the moment in Mexico where Bentinho points to his bedroom and tells Keilan that sex with him would bring him CLOSER TO GOD.
There's also Ecuador. I'll just say - what are the chances?
By the time this episode is out, I've returned from Amsterdam, where I spent a week with Jacqueline, Keilan, Jade, dozens of defectors, and Dutch investigative journalist Ivo van Woerden, whose book 'In de Greep van de Goeroe' - In the Grip of the Guru - has just been released in the Netherlands. The press there has been consuming this story. If you have something to share about what happened inside Bentinho's organization, now is a crucial time.
Keilan broke a significant six-figure NDA to tell this story.The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything.
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A note before you listen: this episode was recorded before I left for the Netherlands. I just spent seven days there shooting with the Three Amigos, Jacqueline Graham, Keilan McNeil, Jade Alectra and Ivo van Woerden, along with a number of other people who are essential to telling this story. A lot is coming.
But first, this.
Ivo van Woerden is a Dutch journalist who has spent the better part of five years investigating Bentinho Massaro. He interviewed over 60 people. He was publicly called out by Massaro on Instagram before he'd even published a word, his name and handle broadcast to thousands of followers in what felt, as Ivo puts it, genuinely threatening. He kept going anyway.
The result is "In de Greep van de Goeroe," "In the Grip of the Guru," published this week and available now in Dutch. For more information, follow Ivo's Substack - https://ivovanwoerden.substack.com/
In this conversation, Ivo and I cover a lot of ground: how he found Massaro, what Massaro's public callout of him actually felt like, his own undercover experience inside a high-control group, the WhatsApp messages between Massaro and former girlfriend Alison that are as chilling as anything in this story, the psychology of Cory Katuna, and the question that everyone asks and nobody can fully answer: does Bentinho Massaro believe his own mythology?
Ivo is not only a phenomenal journalist. He's become a genuine friend. And the survivors, the people who lived through what this podcast is about, think the world of him. There's a reason for that, and you'll hear it in this conversation.
The book is available now. If you speak Dutch, or know someone who does, go find it.The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything.
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For over four years I've been documenting the world of Bentinho Massaro - a Dutch spiritual influencer with millions of followers and a very dark story behind the public image. This is my deep dive investigation. We've heard from Jacqueline Graham in Episodes 1 and 2. Now it's time to hear from Keilan McNeil.
Keilan's entry point into Bentinho's world is completely different from Jacqueline's. He wasn't a spiritual seeker. He was a twenty-two year old film school dropout, isolated, angry at the system, going down conspiracy YouTube at two in the morning. Bentinho didn't offer him enlightenment. He offered him purpose. And that distinction matters - because purpose is a harder hook to see, and a harder one to let go of.
This episode covers Keilan's arc from the first YouTube video through Egypt, Hawaii, and Italy. Along the way we meet Cory Katuna for the first time - Bentinho's right-hand woman, the person who kept the whole operation running. We also meet Allison McClarty, Bentinho's girlfriend during this period, whose story is one of the more difficult ones in the series. And we spend time on something essential to understand about these organizations - the way they take your clearest, most legitimate instincts and weaponize them against you. Every group does it. The language is always different. The move is always the same.
As with all of them, Keilan broke a significant six-figure NDA to tell this story.
Bentinho Massaro's standing invitation to appear on this podcast remains open.
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In Part One, we met Jacqueline Graham, a Canadian mother of three, a lifelong spiritual seeker, and the woman who would become Bentinho Massaro's girlfriend. We watched her get drawn in: the love bombing, the pedestaling, the first cruelties, the money handed over in Panama. This episode is about what happened after she decided to go all in.
"All In" covers the full arc of Jacqueline's time inside: the financial coercion, the manipulation tactics, a letter she was asked to sign at a monastery in the Netherlands that she probably shouldn't have, a night in Vegas she describes as one of the most degrading experiences of her life, and the slow, painful collapse that finally led her out. It ends with the two words she sent to a woman she'd never met, whose story turned out to be her own story.
Throughout this episode I've woven narration in and out of Jacqueline's account, trying to give the listener the psychological scaffolding to understand what they're hearing. Not just what happened, but why it makes sense that it happened, and why the people it happened to are not the ones who should carry the shame of it. We get into betrayal blindness and DARVO, two concepts developed by psychologist Dr. Jennifer Freyd that turn out to be an almost perfect description of how organizations like this one operate. We talk about shame -- how it's manufactured, how it's weaponized, and how it keeps people silent long after they've left. And we talk about what actually helps: connection, comparison of notes, and the decision not to hide.
Jacqueline broke a significant six-figure NDA to tell this story. She did it anyway. Because she felt she had no choice.The views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything.
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I've seen this before. Not something like this. Not a similar version of this. This. The same playbook. The same psychological architecture. Just a different face.
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My name is Mark Vicente. I'm a filmmaker and a former member of NXIVM, the cult run by Keith Raniere, who is currently serving 120 years in federal prison. I was one of the whistleblowers who helped bring that organization down. That experience was chronicled in The Vow on HBO.This is Inst@Guru, a new investigative podcast series going inside the world of Bentinho Massaro. Dutch. Blonde. Blue-eyed. Charming. Self-proclaimed enlightened being. Claims his penis has healing properties. Claims he's going to awaken civilization by 2035. Believes he's Ra, an extraterrestrial being in human form, here to correct a cosmic mistake.
He still has followers. He launched a new app in 2025. The machine is still running.
At the center of this series are three people who were inside his world, some of them deep inside, some of them for years. They call themselves the Three Amigos. Their names are Jacqueline Graham, Keilan McNeil, and Jade Alectra. All three broke their NDAs, agreements carrying significant six-figure penalty clauses, because they felt they had no choice.
I believe them.
In this episode, Jacqueline Graham tells her story from the beginning. Not from Bentinho... from herself. From who she was before any of this: a Canadian mother of three, a raw vegan restaurateur, a lifelong spiritual seeker who genuinely wanted to understand the deeper nature of reality. She found Bentinho on YouTube in 2013. By 2019, she was his girlfriend. By 2020, he had taken hundreds of thousands of dollars of her money.
This episode covers how it started. The teachings. The retreat in the Netherlands. The moment she watched the women around him fall apart and told herself: "I wouldn't act like that." The love bombing. The pedestalling. The first withdrawal. And the decision, standing in a hotel room in Panama after $80,000 had vanished overnight, that she was never going to doubt him again.
That decision is where Episode 1 ends. It is not where the story ends.
Bentinho Massaro, the invitation remains. Talk to me. Publicly.
CAST OF CHARACTERS link coming soon.
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THIS IS PART 2. In Part 1, I sat down with Margot Lane and Mara Moon - two former bandmates of Corey Feldman's Corey's Angels - to hear how they were drawn in: the love bombing, the false promises, the body shaming, and the slow erosion of their boundaries. If you haven't seen Part 1 yet, go there first.
Part 2 is where things escalate. On tour, the abuse ramps up: sleep deprivation, no bed, drug use, coerced sexual situations, and a moment of witnessing another woman being abused that became the breaking point. We also get into the NDA, Margot's labor board victory, what role Courtney played in the abuse of other women, and what Margot and Mara think is really driving Corey Feldman's behavior.
We close with something genuinely useful: their advice to anyone who might find themselves in a similar situation. Document everything. Get out. Get therapy. Find your support system.
The patterns these women describe are the same ones that show up in coercive control situations again and again. This story matters.
Watch Corey Feldman vs. The World before listening - it will make this conversation much more meaningful.
https://tv.apple.com/us/movie/corey-feldman-vs-the-world/umc.cmc.638hs9xgsfcmdcgkyn7s7m51u
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In this first part of a two-part episode, I sit down with Margot Lane and Mara Moon; two former bandmates of Corey Feldman who were part of his group, 'Corey's Angels'. Both women were subjects of the documentary film Corey Feldman vs. The World, directed by Marcie Hume, whom I interviewed in a previous episode.
Margot and Mara share how they were each drawn into Feldman's world, lured by promises of a music career, financial stability, and a fresh start, and what they found once they arrived. From body shaming and food restriction to controlled movement and psychological manipulation, their stories reveal a deeply troubling pattern that will be familiar to anyone who has studied or experienced coercive control.
I also address the apparent PR campaign working to silence those who speak out... and explain why silencing people almost always has the opposite effect.
This is Part 1. Part 2 drops next week.
Watch Corey Feldman vs. The World before listening — it will make this conversation much more meaningful.
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Narcissist's Playbook — watch the trailer at www.narcissistsplaybook.com
00:00 Cold Open – Mara's Warning
00:22 Introduction & Context
01:00 The PR Silencing Campaign
02:00 Does Abuse Justify Abuse? The Streisand Effect
03:34 Why This Story Matters
04:02 Who Were Margot and Mara Before?
06:43 Why They Said Yes — The Promise of Opportunity
08:18 Entering Corey's World – First Impressions
09:50 Red Flags Begin – Food, Body Shaming & Control
13:24 How It Felt to Be Targeted
15:17 Margot's Experience – Boundaries Under Fire
19:18 Patreon Cult Series Announcement
20:16 How They Were Hooked Through Their Art
22:24 Love Bombing & Flattery
23:45 The Polyamory Dynamic
25:13 Sexual Undertones & Coercion
28:32 The NDA, The Club & What Happened Next
38:02 End of Part 1 – See You Next WeekThe views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything.
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Africa Brooke and I did an Instagram Live right after the Epstein files dropped, and we didn't hold back. Africa is one of my closest friends, one of the most honest thinkers I know, and someone who has never been afraid to ask the questions most people would rather avoid.
We talked about evil... why good people struggle to recognize it, why they keep making excuses for it, and what it costs us when we do. We talked about the psychology of narcissists and psychopaths, why they need us more than we realize, and what it actually means to stop being their fuel. We went into the spiritual dimension of what's happening, the importance of protecting your nervous system without dissociating from reality, and what it looks like to find your center when everything around you is designed to destabilize you.
My film is Narcissist Playbook.
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00:00 Welcome, and why this conversation matters
9:10 NXIVM, waking up from a cult, and the obsession that followed
14:00 Interviewing self-confessed narcissists, sociopaths, and psychopaths
20:00 We are being psychologically operated on... and how to recognize it
26:15 Why they need our fear, and what it means that we can starve them
34:25 Locus of control... pulling yourself back inward
43:00 Stop looking to mommy and daddy government to fix what they created
53:35 How Africa and I met in Lisbon, and why I became a filmmaker
1:06:00 Don't dissociate... let your heart be broken and filled
1:16:00 Is it unethical to bring children into this world?
1:26:50 Sovereignty, initiation, and finding the grit inside yourself
1:36:40 Looking for omnipresent love in the creations instead of the creatorThe views and opinions expressed on WTF is on my Mind?! do not necessarily reflect the official policy or position of the podcast or Mark Vicente. Any content provided by guests are of their opinion and are not intended to malign any religion, group, club, organization, business individual, anyone or anything.
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She watches up to fourteen documentaries a week! Not for school. Not for work. Because she’s obsessed.
In this episode of WTF Is On My Mind?, I sit down with Christie Boschman, known online as That Documentary Girl. Her platform has grown to over 4.5 million followers because she does one thing exceptionally well. She talks about documentaries with real passion.
But this is not just a conversation about movies.
We get into why audiences are drawn to dark stories, the psychology behind cult and crime narratives, the disturbing patterns around Epstein and powerful men protecting each other, and why so many great independent documentaries struggle to find distribution.
Christie watches up to fourteen documentaries a week. She has become a bridge between indie filmmakers and the public, helping projects go viral and, in some cases, helping them secure distribution.
NARCISSIST'S PLAYBOOK TRAILER
We also discuss:
• Why dark stories travel faster than hopeful ones
• The ethics of covering trauma and predatory behavior
• Narcissism and how predators operate
• Online backlash and the psychology of keyboard warriors
• Why streaming platforms play it safe
• Whether social media is becoming the new proof of concept for truth
00:00 The reel that sparked this conversation
02:05 Falling in love with documentaries and Sharkwater
05:15 Why making documentaries is brutal
07:50 The documentary industry is struggling
10:15 Why dark stories perform online
12:40 Watching darkness without losing yourself
15:30 Epstein, power circles, and why people look away
21:10 Kumare and how cult leaders are made
23:00 Adrenaline documentaries and survival stories
27:00 Why great indie docs can’t find distribution
31:30 Going viral and building a platform from obsession
34:45 Online backlash and calling out bad behavior
38:20 Unauthorized documentaries and controversy
45:00 The Narcissist’s Playbook
47:00 Stutz and the power of the twist
51:45 Christie’s family documentary and The Honey Children
56:00 Why documentaries deserve to be seen
59:00 Finding awe and the antidote to cynicism
Films and series mentioned in this episode:
The Vow
What the Bleep Do We Know?
Sharkwater
Kumare
Filthy Rich
Corey Feldman vs. The World
Peter Nygård: Unseen
Allen v. Farrow
The Deepest Breath
The Last Breath
Touching the Void
I Shouldn’t Be Alive
Free Solo
The Alpinist
The Final Member
Beyond Utopia
Maya and the Wave https://youtu.be/44ElZ_dqgMA?si=qBAh18a3eWsd2a1F
Norman & Norman
Stutz
Between the Mountain and the Sky
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