• 27 minutes 12 seconds
    Ep 178. Solo Episode: What Does Spirituality Have To Do With Sobriety?

    This week, Ash shares a sneak peak into her memoir she's currently writing, tracing how her spiritual life has evolved in recovery. What began as skepticism and resistance toward anything “spiritual” has slowly become the foundation of her day-to-day life, influencing how she relates to herself, others, and the world around her.


    She opens up about moving from a place of self-hatred, numbing, and constant chasing to an inner landscape shaped by simple, consistent practices like prayer, meditation, gratitude, and quiet acts of service. Ash reflects on how spirituality, for her, isn’t about being “woo-woo” or giving up ambition or joy, but about how you live when no one is watching and how kindly you speak to yourself when things are hard.


    At its heart, this episode invites listeners to reconsider what spirituality might look like in their own lives, whether they’re on a sober path, a healing journey, or simply curious about something deeper.


    Episode Chapters:

    00:00 Welcome, Intentions & Gratitude

    00:56 Memoir Writing & Bali Setup

    03:14 Spirituality as the Foundation of Sobriety

    05:39 From Non‑Believer to Spiritual Seeker

    08:04 Redefining a Higher Power in Recovery

    10:26 Gift of Desperation & Early God Experiments

    12:48 Daily Prayer, Gratitude & Relationship with God

    15:01 Meditation, Listening & Two‑Way Prayer

    17:25 Depositing into the Spiritual Bank

    19:42 Spiritual Solution to Alcoholism & Old Patterns


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    Upcoming Workshops:


    The Reconnection Ritual | June 21st | Buy Tickets Here


    Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

    Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026


    Follow and connect with Ash on: 

    ⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

    TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb

    Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


    Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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    7 June 2026, 7:00 pm
  • 56 minutes 40 seconds
    Ep 177. What It Takes To Be A Sober Solo Mum, with Alisha Burns

    This week, Ash sits down with Alisha Burns, founder of Solo Mum Society, to talk about the deeply personal road that led her to motherhood on her own terms. Alisha shares the heartbreak of infertility, the emotional weight of hidden struggles, and the quiet strength it took to move through a life that often looked fine from the outside while feeling very different underneath.


    She opens up about the role alcohol played in her life, the pressure of social expectations, and the long process of learning to trust herself again. Ash and Alisha explore what it means to choose donor conception, to step into solo motherhood by choice, and to build a life that feels honest, intentional, and aligned with who you really are.


    Throughout the conversation, Alisha reflects on the changing shape of family, the power of community support, and the liberation that can come from letting go of the version of life you thought you were meant to have. At its heart, this episode is about grief, growth, and the courage to create a future rooted in authenticity, independence, and love.


    Trigger Warning: This episode discusses pregnancy loss. 


    Episode chapters:

    00:00 Introduction to Alicia Burns and Her Journey

    03:01 Navigating Motherhood and Business

    06:01 Hiding Behind a Smile: Alicia's Photo Reflection

    09:11 Infertility Struggles and Emotional Toll

    12:09 The Impact of Alcohol on Coping Mechanisms

    15:04 The End of a Marriage and New Beginnings

    17:58 Finding Strength in Adversity

    20:53 The Journey to Motherhood: Donor Conception

    23:48 Overcoming Challenges and Embracing Change

    30:45 The Journey of Single Motherhood

    32:08 Navigating Isolation and Connection

    34:29 The Impact of Alcohol Culture

    38:52 Realizations and Transformations

    43:35 Embracing Independence and Self-Discovery

    46:25 The Changing Landscape of Family Dynamics

    49:54 Empowerment Through Intentional Choices

    52:46 Building Community and Support

    54:40 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life


    Website - www.solomumsociety.com

    Instagram - @noneedforprincecharming


    Upcoming Workshops:


    The Reconnection Ritual | June 21st | Buy Tickets Here 


    Join Ash on retreat in 2026!


    Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026



    Follow and connect with Ash on: 

    ⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

    TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb

    Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


    Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

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    31 May 2026, 7:00 pm
  • 41 minutes 12 seconds
    Ep 176. What Really Went Down at The Embodied Woman Retreat, with Ash & Laura Corcoran

    This week, Ash sits down with holistic psychologist Laura Corcoran to unpack what really happened inside The Embodied Woman retreat. Over four days on the Gold Coast, sixteen women arrived as strangers and left having cracked open years of armour, people pleasing, perfectionism, and emotional suppression.


    Ash and Laura reflect on the moments that shifted everything, from the resistance and fear women carried on day one, to the tears, breakthroughs, nervous system releases, and deep honesty that unfolded as the weekend progressed. They speak about why so many women feel disconnected from themselves, how high functioning coping mechanisms keep us stuck, and what happens when you finally feel safe enough to be fully seen.


    This conversation explores embodiment, sisterhood, emotional healing, relationships, boundaries, identity, and the power of being in a room where masks are no longer needed. Ash and Laura also share why transformation happens so quickly in immersive spaces like this, and why the women who attended are already making powerful changes in their lives back home.


    If you’ve ever felt exhausted from holding it all together, disconnected from yourself, or like you’re craving something deeper than surface level self development, this episode is for you.


    For more information on The Embodied Woman Retreat 2027 you can send Ash a message on IG here, or email [email protected]


    Episode Chapters:

    00:00 The Energy of the Retreat

    02:58 Integration and Connection

    06:00 Creating a Safe Space

    08:59 Meeting Your Edge

    11:53 Transformation Through Action

    15:04 Intergenerational Healing

    17:56 The Power of Vulnerability

    20:59 Sisterhood and Support

    24:01 Reflections on the Experience

    28:33 Connection and Community in Retreats

    30:10 Overcoming Personal Challenges

    32:06 Emotional Vulnerability and Heart Opening

    33:13 Facing Uncertainty and Embracing Change

    36:32 The Journey of Growth and Transformation

    38:19 The Power of Embodied Experiences

    39:20 Announcing the Next Retreat


    Reach out to Laura - @hersuccessfulmind


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    Upcoming Workshops:

    The Reconnection Ritual | June 21st | Buy Tickets Here


    Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

    Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026


    Follow and connect with Ash on: 

    ⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

    TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb

    Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


    Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

    Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    24 May 2026, 7:00 pm
  • 56 minutes 17 seconds
    Ep 175. A Rapid Road to Rock Bottom and Finding a Life Worth Living, with Rosie Eldershaw

    This week, Ash sits down with Rosie Eldershaw, a country girl turned Melburnian who recently celebrated three years of sobriety after multiple rehabs and several near-fatal rock bottoms. Rosie shares how her drinking progressed from nightly wine to 24/7 spirits and drugs, and how she kept a bubbly, high-functioning facade while quietly falling apart inside. She speaks honestly about seizures, the shame of drinking hand sanitiser and mouthwash, and the terror of knowing something was very wrong but feeling powerless to stop.


    Rosie reflects on the turning points that finally stuck: finding a 12-step program, allowing others to help, and building a simple, peaceful life she genuinely enjoys with yoga, dog parks, her partner and her dog. This is a grounded, hopeful conversation about ownership, spirituality, and the non-negotiables that now protect her sobriety and happiness.


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    Episode chapters:

    00:00 Introduction and Journey of Transformation

    03:01 Rosie's Story of Sobriety

    05:56 The Struggles Behind the Smile

    08:57 The Dangerous Path of Alcoholism

    12:07 Childhood and Early Influences

    14:48 The Progression of Drinking

    17:58 Family Concerns and Consequences

    20:54 The Desperation of Addiction

    23:55 The Journey to Rehab

    26:28 The Journey Through Rehab

    29:00 The Turning Point: A Meeting That Changed Everything

    32:52 Embracing Spirituality in Recovery

    36:57 Overcoming the Ego: Finding a Higher Power

    40:46 Living One Day at a Time

    46:29 Building Healthy Relationships in Sobriety

    53:24 Non-Negotiables for a Happy Life


    Upcoming Workshops:


    The Reconnection Ritual | June 21st | Buy Tickets Here


    Join Ash on retreat in 2026!


    Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026



    Follow and connect with Ash on: 

    ⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

    TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb

    Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


    Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!



    Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    17 May 2026, 7:00 pm
  • 29 minutes 7 seconds
    Ep 174. Learning to Surrender, Why Acceptance is the Pathway To Inner Peace, with Ash Butterss

    This week, Ash returns with a solo episode that’s felt long overdue. After a season of slowing down and stepping back, she’s back behind the mic on her own, not with all the answers, but with a deeper level of honesty about what it really means to accept life as it is.


    Drawing on yoga philosophy, recovery, and her own lived experience, Ash explores the tension between control and surrender. She opens up about her patterns of perfectionism, the need to hold everything together, and the unexpected peace that came when she finally softened her grip.


    This is a deeply personal reflection on relationships, family dynamics, and the moments that still stir old wounds. Ash also shares her experience navigating motherhood, fertility, and loss, and how these chapters have shaped her understanding of acceptance in a way no theory ever could.


    If you’ve been trying to control outcomes, fix everything, or push against what is, this episode offers a different way.


    A gentle reminder that peace isn’t found in having it all figured out, but in learning to meet yourself exactly where you are.


    Episode chapters:

    00:00 Introduction and Intentions

    00:57 Embracing Vulnerability in Solo Episodes

    04:03 The Journey of Acceptance

    10:10 Letting Go of Control

    15:00 Navigating Relationships with Acceptance

    20:04 The Spiritual Journey and Personal Growth

    24:53 Conclusion and Call to Action


    Join Ash’s community newsletter! Click the link here to join.


    Upcoming Workshops:

    The Reconnection Ritual | June 21st | Buy Tickets Here


    Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

    Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026


    Follow and connect with Ash on: 

    ⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

    TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb

    Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


    Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

    Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    10 May 2026, 7:00 pm
  • 55 minutes 10 seconds
    Ep 173. Dancing Through the Dark, Depression and Psychosis, with Taylah King

    This week, Ash sits down with embodied dance artist and coach Taylah King, whose journey from darkness to rediscovery is both heart-wrenching and deeply inspiring. Taylah opens up about her twelve-year relationship and marriage that began in childhood, the growing inner whisper that something wasn't right, and the vulnerability of walking away from the only safety she'd ever known. From alcohol abuse that started at fourteen to a drug-induced psychosis triggered by ayahuasca, Taylah shares candidly about spending two years dissociated from reality, convinced she was dead, and trapped in a mental health crisis that felt inescapable.


    She reflects on the terrifying experience of psychosis, the inadequacy of traditional mental health support, and the overwhelming loneliness of not knowing if she'd ever come back. Taylah describes the turning point that changed everything: surrendering to faith, working with a mentor, and falling in love for the first time while sober, which allowed her to finally feel again after years of numbness. Throughout their conversation, Ash and Taylah explore the danger of spiritual bypassing, the power of embodiment practices, and the importance of learning to listen to your nervous system instead of seeking answers outside yourself.


    Today, Taylah uses dance and movement as medicine, helping others reconnect to their bodies and move freely in the world without substances. Her story is a powerful reminder that even in the deepest darkness, there is always a way back home to yourself.


    Episode Chapters:


    00:00 Introduction to Taylah's Journey

    02:56 Rediscovery Through Dance

    06:05 The Struggles Behind the Smile

    09:02 Substance Abuse and Its Impact

    12:01 The Role of Ayahuasca in Healing

    14:58 Experiencing Psychosis

    17:55 The Aftermath of Psychosis

    21:02 Finding Freedom in Movement

    30:11 The Journey Through Psychosis

    34:01 Spiritual Awakening and Healing

    39:12 The Role of Love and Relationships in Recovery

    43:10 Embodiment and Self-Connection

    51:13 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life


    You can connect with Taylah using the links below:

    Instagram: @taylahkingmovement


    Follow and connect with Ash on: 

    ⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

    TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb

    Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


    Upcoming Workshops:

    The Reconnection Ritual | June 21st | Buy Tickets Here


    Join Ash on retreat in 2026!


    The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026 


    Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026


    Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

    Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    3 May 2026, 7:00 pm
  • 1 hour 1 minute
    Ep 172. How to Value Yourself and Start Living Differently, with Blake D. Bauer

    This week, Ash sits down with author Blake D. Bauer, whose book You Were Not Born to Suffer has helped thousands rethink the way they relate to themselves, their pain, and their past. Blake opens up about his own journey through addiction, mental health struggles, and the pressure to keep it all hidden behind a smile, tracing how childhood experiences and emotional confusion shaped the way he moved through the world.


    He shares how meditation and Eastern philosophies became lifelines and a pathway into healing. Ash and Blake dive into the power of morning meditation, the quiet joy of everyday moments, and what it really means to take radical responsibility for your inner life instead of waiting for someone else to fix it.


    Throughout their conversation, Blake offers grounded, practical steps for cultivating self-love and rebuilding self-trust: listening to your own needs, telling yourself the truth, and learning to treat yourself with the same honesty and kindness you’d offer someone you care about.


    If you’re looking for simple ways that will significantly improve your life, this episode is for you!


    Episode Chapters:


    00:00 Introduction to Blake Bauer's Journey

    02:59 The Importance of Morning Meditation

    06:01 Finding Joy in Everyday Life

    09:01 The Impact of Travel on Personal Growth

    12:04 Hiding Behind a Smile: A Personal Story

    15:04 Childhood Influences and Emotional Struggles

    17:51 The Role of Sports in Blake's Life

    20:50 Consequences of Substance Abuse

    23:48 Awakening to a Spiritual Journey

    27:06 The Healing Power of Eastern Philosophies

    32:57 The Journey to Self-Discovery

    34:10 The Importance of Self-Love

    38:38 Practical Steps to Cultivate Self-Love

    50:23 Rebuilding Self-Trust and Confidence

    58:44 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life


    You can connect with Blake using the links below:

    Free Meditation: https://vimeo.com/768757355

    Website: https://elevatewellness.io/

    Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/blakedbauer/?hl=en 

    Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/YouWereNotBornToSuffer.by.BlakeDBauer 

    LinkedIn: https://linkedin.com/in/blake-d-bauer 


    Follow and connect with Ash on: 

    ⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

    TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb

    Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


    Upcoming Workshops:

    The Reconnection Ritual | June 21st | Melbourne - Buy Tickets Here


    Join Ash on retreat in 2026!


    The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026 


    Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026


    Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

    Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    26 April 2026, 7:00 pm
  • 1 hour 42 minutes
    Ep 171. Behind the Spotlight, Naomi Eyers on Life from the Stage to 31 Years of Sobriety

    This week, Ash sits down with powerhouse performer Naomi Eyers, whose four-decade career has taken her from session singer to London’s West End, global tours with The Fabulous Singlettes, and sharing stages with icons like Shirley Bassey and Tom Jones. Behind the spotlight, Naomi has quietly built over 31 years of sobriety, reshaping not just her life in music, but the way she shows up for herself and others.


    Naomi opens up about her early experiences with alcohol and drugs, the pull of ambition, and the quiet moments that revealed her relationship with drinking was no longer sustainable. She shares candidly about the ups and downs of her recovery journey including her recent heart attack that became a brutal wake-up call, going to rehab with almost three decades of sobriety, and the spiritual and emotional work that followed.


    Together, they trace Naomi’s journey through addiction, sobriety, and the long road of staying sober through life’s inevitable turmoil including grief, changing relationships, and the ongoing demands of a life in the arts. Naomi reflects on the role of community, the impact of the relationships that held a mirror up when she needed it most, and the way music, fun, and creativity still sit at the heart of her life today, only now grounded in peace rather than chaos.


    Naomi shares how today she values spiritual connection, honest self-reflection, service, and simple daily routines that keep her anchored in gratitude and presence.


    Episode chapters:

    00:00 Introduction to the Retreats and Podcast

    01:19 Naomi Eyers: A Life in Music

    03:12 Daily Routine and Morning Practices

    11:32 Spiritual Connection and Personal Growth

    15:03 Finding Fun and Connection in Recovery

    18:11 The Search for Inner Peace

    22:42 Early Experiences with Alcohol

    28:27 Life as a Young Performer

    31:47 The Restless Pursuit of Ambition

    34:00 Navigating the Music Scene in Sydney

    36:47 Living in a Narcissistic Bubble

    39:19 The Illusion of Success

    42:42 The Catalyst for Change

    44:31 Rock Bottom and Relationships

    46:30 The Denial of Alcoholism

    50:53 The Struggle for Control

    55:30 The Moment of Surrender

    01:00:12 Awakening to the Truth

    01:04:11 Finding a New Path in Recovery

    01:08:13 The Struggle of Sobriety

    01:09:42 The Journey of Recovery and Relapse

    01:11:37 Relationships and Higher Powers

    01:13:33 The Impact of Lockdown on Relationships

    01:16:39 The Heart Attack: A Wake-Up Call

    01:18:28 Seeking Help: The Path to Recovery

    01:22:17 Experiences at South Pacific Private

    01:25:09 The Importance of Vulnerability in Recovery

    01:30:24 The Power of Community and Connection

    01:36:56 Letting Go and Embracing Change

    01:40:41 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life


    Follow and connect with Ash on: 

    ⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

    TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb

    Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


    Upcoming Workshops:


    Join Ash on retreat in 2026!


    The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026 


    Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026


    Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

    Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    19 April 2026, 7:00 pm
  • 1 hour 11 minutes
    Ep 170. Long-Term Sobriety and What It Takes to Keep Growing, with Campbell Butterss

    This week’s episode is four years in the making, as Ash sits down with her brother, Campbell Butterss, for a conversation that is both deeply personal and authentically honest. 

    Cam reflects on their shared upbringing, growing up in an environment that was at times unpredictable. The subtle dynamics and unspoken patterns that shaped them both, and how sport became an outlet and a way to navigate emotions he didn’t yet have the words for.

    At sixteen years sober, Cam opens up about his journey into sobriety at 26, the moments that led him to take a more honest look at his relationship with alcohol, and the support systems that helped him find a new way forward. Ash and Cam explore the evolving nature of family and friendships in recovery, what shifts, what stays the same, and what it takes to step out of old roles and into something more aligned.

    They also touch on the realities of Campbell’s career in real estate, and the tools he’s developed to move through uncertainty and pressure without falling back into old patterns. Woven throughout the conversation are themes of growth, perspective, and the grounding influence of fatherhood, as Campbell shares how becoming a dad has shaped the way he lives, leads, and shows up today.


    Episode Chapters:

    00:00 Introduction to the Retreats

    01:19 Meet Campbell Butters: A Personal Journey

    02:33 The Importance of Family and Relationships

    04:37 Navigating Life's Challenges: A Personal Reflection

    06:51 Finding Purpose in Real Estate

    09:02 The Roller Coaster of Real Estate

    12:16 Tools for Resilience in a Volatile Industry

    14:58 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Struggles of 2009

    19:00 Childhood Memories and Family Dynamics

    21:38 The Role of Sport in Escaping Reality

    26:11 The Impact of Alcohol on Life Choices

    29:28 Lessons Learned from Family Success

    31:10 Teenage Rebellion and Authority Issues

    33:05 The Journey Begins: A Geographical Escape

    34:34 The Struggles of Alcoholism: A Year of Excess

    37:48 The Turning Point: Realizations and Recovery

    41:08 Finding Support: The Early Days of Sobriety

    43:12 Facing Second Rock Bottom: Dealing with Trauma

    47:18 Spiritual Awakening: The Role of Spirituality in Recovery

    51:26 Family Dynamics: Navigating Relationships in Recovery

    54:10 Friendship Changes: The Pain of Growing Apart

    01:00:43 Fatherhood: The Greatest Gift and Responsibility

    01:03:16 Non-Negotiables: Keys to a Fulfilling Life


    You can connect withCampbell using the links below:

    Instagram: Campbell Butterss

    Website: Marshall White Real Estate


    Follow and connect with Ash on: 

    ⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

    TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb

    Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


    Upcoming Workshops:


    Join Ash on retreat in 2026!


    The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026 


    Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026


    Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

    Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    12 April 2026, 7:00 pm
  • 1 hour 14 minutes
    Ep 169. The Energetics of Grief, How to Heal and Keep Going, with Jade Donegan

    This week, Ash sits down with principal consultant and founder of the Energy Collective Co, Jade Donegan, to explore what it really means to care for your inner world while navigating the demands of work, family, and grief. Jade shares how her spirituality helped her to navigate the profound rupture of losing her dad, a loss that reshaped how she sees life, love, and success.


    She opens up about her journey through grief and forgiveness, the unexpected signs she still receives from her father, and the emotional toll of trying to keep going when your heart is somewhere else. Ash and Jade dive into the importance of emotional health at work, the need for accountability in professional spaces, and how understanding our own energy can change the way we lead, collaborate, and show up for the people around us.


    Throughout their conversation, Jade reflects on the transformative power of practices like Reiki, and how they’ve helped her build self-awareness, soften self-judgment, and create workplaces where wellbeing is taken seriously. Together, they talk about moving through emotions rather than getting stuck in them, and the courage it takes to let yourself feel everything without shutting down. 


    At its heart, this episode is an invitation to meet yourself with empathy whether you’re sitting in grief, in transition, or in growth. You’ll walk away with insights on how to build a life and career that honour both your humanity and your healing.



    Episode Chapters:

    00:00 Introduction to Retreats and Personal Growth

    01:51 Meet Jade Donegan: A Journey of Transformation

    04:04 Daily Life and Finding Joy in Learning

    08:10 The Move to New Zealand: A Family Adventure

    11:32 Hiding Behind a Smile: The Impact of Grief

    19:06 Navigating Grief: A Personal Story of Loss

    23:44 Navigating Numbness and Helplessness

    24:26 The Journey of Forgiveness

    25:55 A Life-Changing Accident

    28:20 Empathy and Forgiveness in Grief

    29:36 Signs from Beyond

    36:50 The Power of Reiki

    43:03 Workplace Wellbeing and Accountability


    You can connect with Jade using the links below:

    http://www.energycollectiveco.com.au/



    Follow and connect with Ash on: 

    ⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

    TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb

    Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com



    Join Ash on retreat in 2026!


    The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026 


    Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026


    Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!



    Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    5 April 2026, 7:00 pm
  • 40 minutes 17 seconds
    Ep 168. Alcohol-Induced Vomiting, The Radical Therapy That Got Ian Fee Sober

    This week, Ash sits down with sobriety advocate, author, and entrepreneur, Ian Fee, for a conversation that challenges everything you think you know about recovery.

    After 34 years of heavy drinking, Ian reached a point where he was willing to try anything to get sober. What followed was one of the most confronting decisions of his life, undergoing 10 days of radical aversion therapy designed to make alcohol physically repulsive. 


    Ian shares what it was really like inside that experience, including daily alcohol-induced vomiting, sedatives and intense therapy. This was the doorway that led him to sobriety and the opportunity to rebuild his life. From losing almost everything to slowly repairing, Ian opens up about healing relationships, restoring self-respect, and learning how to live day by day without escaping himself.


    Along with losing 85 pounds, Ian has formed a whole new identity and now lives a life that is full of gratitude, purpose and meaning. 


    Episode chapters:

    00:00 Introduction to Ian Fee's Journey

    06:11 The Impact of Sobriety on Daily Life

    12:53 Reflections on Family and Presence

    18:57 The Evolution of Drinking Habits

    21:00 Turning Point: Aversion Therapy Experience

    23:37 Exploring Aversion Therapy for Sobriety

    26:00 The Turning Point: Realizing the Need for Change

    28:31 The Shift in Relationships and Support Systems

    32:02 Finding Purpose Through Storytelling

    33:04 Building a Foundation for Recovery

    38:12 Healing Relationships with Children

    40:47 Non-Negotiables for a Happy Life


    You can connect with Ian using the links below:

    Website: makeitgreat.me

    LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/ian-fee-6391b112/

    Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/people/Make-It-Great/100034784122106/

    Link to Book: https://www.amazon.com/Wild-Ride-Sobriety-Transformation-Oblivion/dp/B0DHYR1YST/


    Follow and connect with Ash on: 

    ⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

    TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb

    Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


    Follow and connect with Ash on: 

    ⁠Instagram⁠ @ashbutterss

    TikTok @behindthesmilewithashb

    Website⁠ www.ashbutterss.com


    Join Ash on retreat in 2026!

    The Embodied Woman Retreat | Gold Coast | May 2026 

    Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026


    Watch Ash’s TEDx Talk here!

    Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

    29 March 2026, 6:00 pm
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