- 1 hour 6 minutesEp 187. The Spiritual Thread Between Recovery and Yoga, with Mark Purser
My guest this week is Mark Purser, a yoga teacher, meditation guide, and founder of the Yogic Meditation Institute, based in Byron Bay. With over 20 years of study across almost every major yoga tradition, Mark brings a rare depth of knowledge to his teaching. But behind all of that wisdom is a story of years spent swinging between intense spiritual practice and alcohol, trying to find a way out that didn't involve fully surrendering.
In this conversation, Mark shares the moment his last drink became his last, alone in a national park on his birthday with no phone reception and a choice to make. He and Ash explore the relationship between yoga philosophy and 12-step recovery, the power of stillness as a daily practice, and why Yoga Nidra remains the one tool he would never give up. This is a conversation for anyone looking to understand what it really takes to build a life rooted in meaning, community, and presence.
Episode chapters:
00:00 Introducing Mark Purser
03:29 Life in Byron Bay: Surfing, Tango, and Sadhana
07:04 How Tango Became a Moving Meditation
10:00 Scent of a Woman and the Seed That Was Planted
12:07 The Photo: Hiding Behind the Smile in Byron Bay
15:15 Yoga Without the Inner Work
18:31 The Tango Class, the Pub, and the Night It All Unravelled
21:28 Being a Dad and the Shame of a Blackout
26:29 The Last Drink: Alone in the Bush on His Birthday
29:44 Choosing Sydney Over the Pub
31:49 The Balance Between Horror and Hope
33:05 A Cousin 35 Years Sober and the Power of Living Proof
35:29 Why Ash Resisted AA and What Changed
37:13 The Gift of Desperation
45:00 Where Yoga Philosophy and the 12 Steps Meet
51:48 Why He Still Needs Help After 15 Years
53:44 The Stillness Practice and Why It Changes Everything
57:45 Yoga Nidra: The One Tool He Would Never Give Up
59:39 Three Non-Negotiables for a Happy, Authentic Life
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Podcast: The Gentle Revolution
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9 August 2026, 7:00 pm - 1 hour 3 minutesEp 186. How Sobriety Revealed the Truth About Her Sexuality, with Alexandra McRobert
Getting sober gave Alexandra McRobert more than freedom from alcohol, it gave her the clarity to explore who she truly was. Despite having dated men and previously being married to a man, it was during a deep meditation that Alex came to the life changing realisation that she was a lesbian.
Alexandra is a yoga teacher, author, and founder of the Mindful Life Practice and Mindful Bali Yoga School. She got sober in 2019 after years of drinking her way through life in the Middle East, where securing her next drink had quietly become the centre of everything she did.
In this conversation, Alexandra shares how sobriety created space for her sexuality to unfold, the assault that cracked her life open and propelled her to build the yoga shala she had always dreamed of, and why she created the sober community she wished had existed when she needed it most.
Alexandra and Ash also explore the profound overlap between yoga philosophy and the 12 Steps, and what becomes possible when you stop numbing long enough to hear the truth of who you are.
TW: This episode contains discussion of assault.
Episode chapters:
00:00 Introducing Alexandra McRobert
03:09 Life in Ubud: Yoga, Pilates and Kirtan
04:34 How Bali Called Her In
06:19 A Marriage That Lasted Two Months
09:08 The Photo: Hiding Behind the Smile in Morocco
11:42 When Alcohol Consumes Everything
13:08 The Rock Bottom in a Classroom in Abu Dhabi
16:12 Deciding to Get Sober on the Plane Home
18:00 Getting Sober Without Traditional 12-Step Access
19:54 Finding Community Through an Online Sobriety Group
22:35 How COVID Gave Birth to Sober Girls Yoga
24:02 Why Yoga and Sobriety Are the Same Thing
26:23 The Yoga Sutras and the 12 Steps
28:19 Ahimsa and Satya: Love Everyone and Tell the Truth
30:07 Building a Life and a Business in Bali
32:00 Being Drugged and Assaulted: The Turning Point
34:33 Building the Shala and Starting Kirtan
36:11 Trusting the Universe Over the Plan
38:19 How Alcohol Shaped Her Relationships and Marriage
40:19 Coming Out as Queer
43:11 The Vipassana That Changed Everything
51:48 Kirtan, Meditation, and Moving Through Self-Hatred
55:45 Craniosacral Therapy and What the Body Holds
58:01 What Daily Life Rooted in Presence Looks Like
01:02:13 Three Non-Negotiables for a Happy, Authentic Life
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2 August 2026, 7:00 pm - 1 hour 13 minutesEp 185. She Nearly Lost Her Life: Addiction, Violence and Recovery, with Shannan Walsh
My guest this week, Shannan Walsh, lived in the grip of addiction for 18 years. It took her from alcohol and drugs to crime, prison, homelessness and a relationship that nearly cost her life. Eventually, she reached a point where there was nowhere left to run.
In this raw conversation, Shannan shares what it took to survive, get sober and rebuild her life from the ground up. She speaks about motherhood, violence, shame, spirituality and the slow work of learning to trust herself again.
Shannan’s story is confronting, but it is also a hopeful reminder that recovery is possible.
TW: This episode contains discussion of family violence and suicide.
Episode chapters:
00:00 Introducing Shannan Walsh
03:23 The Photo: Hiding Behind the Smile
04:39 A Life Built Around the Drink
07:06 What Shannon Was Like Before Alcohol
08:05 Early Depression and the Hole in the Soul
09:51 When Drugs Entered the Picture
11:00 Ecstasy, Meth, and the Escalation of Addiction
13:22 Crime, Violence, and Running on Rage
18:07 Where Did That Anger Come From?
18:34 Withdrawal, Seizures, and Drinking Against Her Will
20:07 Coming Out of Prison and Falling Pregnant
22:08 Trying to Do the Normal Thing
27:46 The Rock Bottom That Changed Everything
29:59 The Day Intuition Saved Her Children's Lives
33:22 The Attempted Attack and the Fire
35:32 Homeless, in Court, and Holding It Together
39:22 The Verdict and the Aftermath
41:15 The Spiritual Awakening That Cracked Her Open
43:51 Morning Routines, Journaling, and the Small Things That Built Her Back
45:00 12 Step Meetings, Sober Apps, and Finding Community
47:02 Studying Addiction and Training to Be a Counselor
47:55 Navigating Cravings Through Strength Training and Presence
50:52 Sitting with the Discomfort of Sobriety
56:05 Feeling Behind and Finding Her Place
57:20 How the Embodied Woman Retreat Restored Her Faith in Women
59:16 Spiritual Practices That Keep Her Connected
01:02:03 Learning to Pray and Finding a Higher Power
01:04:13 Emotional Regulation and the Biggest Shift of All
01:06:00 Self-Esteem, Self-Love, and the Journey Home
01:07:00 The Gift of Being Present with Her Children
01:10:21 Three Non-Negotiables for a Happy, Authentic Life
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/shannantayla/
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26 July 2026, 7:00 pm - 46 minutes 48 secondsEp 184. Ask Me Anything: Sobriety, Spirituality, Purpose & Relationships, with Ash Butterss
What does rock bottom really feel like? How do you find your purpose, build a life that keeps you grounded, and learn to trust that even your hardest experiences are leading you somewhere?
In this latest “Ask Me Anything” episode, Ash answers six deeply personal questions about sobriety, spirituality, friendship, marriage, purpose and the practices that continue to shape her life.
From the moment everything changed on Valentine’s Day 2020 to the words she wishes she could offer her younger self, Ash shares the truth behind who she is today, what she has learnt along the way, and why she no longer believes life is happening to her, but for her.
If you’re on your own transformation journey, or navigating the messy middle between who you were and who you’re becoming, this episode is for you.
Episode chapters:
00:00 Bali Retreat Announcement
01:13 Welcome and a Wintery Melbourne Morning
03:31 Q1: The Rock Bottom That Changed Everything
08:10 Entering Rehab and Learning to Sit with Discomfort
12:42 Finding Hope in 12-Step Recovery
15:09 Why Ash Stays Sober Today
17:31 Q2: Finding Purpose After Leaving the Corporate World
19:56 How Sobriety, Meditation, Breathwork, and Yoga Revealed Her Path
22:16 Q3: Daily Practices That Have Had the Biggest Impact
24:36 Readings, Journaling, Two-Way Prayer, and Gratitude
27:02 Movement as an Act of Self-Love
29:25 The Power of Monthly Breathwork
31:37 Q4: How Sobriety Changed Friendships, Relationships, and Marriage
33:51 Letting Go of Old Social Scenes
36:12 Building a Healthy, Sober Partnership
38:37 Q5: The Biggest Lesson Learned Through Adversity
41:01 Q6: What Would You Tell Your Younger Self?
43:29 A Letter to Little Ash
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Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026
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19 July 2026, 7:00 pm - 57 minutes 57 secondsEp 183. The Transformational Power of Meditation, with Tom Cronin
This week, Ash sits down with Tom Cronin, meditation teacher and international speaker, for a deeply honest conversation about what it really looks like to hold everything together on the outside while quietly falling apart within. Tom opens up about the two parallel lives he was living during his 26 years in the high pressure world of global financial markets, one of outward success, pinstripe suits, and Bondi beachside living, and another of crippling anxiety, panic attacks, chronic insomnia, depression, and a growing reliance on drugs and alcohol that eventually led to a breakdown at age 29.
It was from that rock bottom that Tom discovered Vedic meditation, a practice that not only transformed his mental health but ultimately became the foundation of an entirely new life and purpose.
Ash and Tom explore the science of stress, why alcohol numbs but never heals, and how meditation actually expands brain function rather than impairing it. Tom shares the journey from seeker to finder to sharer, including the challenges of leaving the golden handcuffs of finance behind, producing his feature film The Portal, and building his mission to inspire a billion people to meditate daily.
The conversation weaves through ego, ego transcendence, contribution, and the holistic practices Tom uses to remain grounded and performing at his best. It is a rich and wide-ranging episode about the courage it takes to change course, the intelligence of the body's warning signals, and the profound freedom that comes from finally looking inward.
Episode chapters:
00:07 Introducing Tom Cronin
04:44 Hiding Behind the Smile: Life on the Trading Room Floor
06:16 Shame, Guilt, and the North Star
11:48 The Golden Handcuffs
12:54 When Drugs and Alcohol Entered the Picture
15:53 Rock Bottom and the Rashi
18:06 The Breakdown and the Turning Point
20:09 Discovering Vedic Meditation
24:46 The Allostatic Load and Why Alcohol Does Not De-stress
28:43 Why Sobriety Supercharges Meditation
33:37 From Seeker to Finder to Sharer
35:44 Leaving Finance and Leaping into Purpose
38:08 Navigating Challenges with Meditation as a Tool
41:09 The Stillness Project and the Making of The Portal
46:45 The Importance of Service and Contribution
49:02 B1G1: Giving Back Through Business
54:05 Three Non-Negotiables for a Happy, Authentic Life
Connect with Tom:
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/user/stillnessproject
Website: http://www.tomcronin.com/
Tom's free book to reduce anxiety and depression https://tomcronin.com/free-calm-book/
Socials:
https://www.instagram.com/tomcronin/
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https://www.linkedin.com/in/tomcronin1/
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Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026
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12 July 2026, 7:00 pm - 31 minutes 27 secondsEp 182. Have You Had Enough? Why Your Old Ideas Are Keeping You Stuck, with Ash Butterss
How much longer are you willing to suffer before something changes?
In this powerful solo episode, Ash explores a recurring theme she’s been discussing with people lately: have you truly had enough? Because whether it's alcohol, a relationship, a career, perfectionism, or an old way of thinking, lasting change rarely happens until we're willing to let go of the ideas, stories, and identities that are keeping us stuck.
Drawing on her own recovery journey, Ash speaks candidly about the gift of desperation, the stigma surrounding the word alcoholic, and why so many of us continue negotiating with our own suffering long after we've realised something isn't working. She shares what it really takes to create meaningful change and why partial willingness often keeps us trapped in the very cycles we're desperate to escape.
This conversation extends far beyond sobriety, inviting listeners to honestly examine where fear, familiarity, and old beliefs may be preventing them from stepping into a more authentic life.
Ash also reflects on celebrating her first wedding anniversary and the unexpected lessons that came from eloping in Italy, including a deeper understanding of people pleasing, self-worth, and the quiet cost of abandoning ourselves to keep others comfortable. She shares why esteemable acts are one of the most powerful ways to build genuine self-worth and how authentic relationships are forged when we stop performing for approval.
Plus, Ash leaves listeners with five thought-provoking journal prompts designed to help you uncover where you may be ready, or almost ready, to finally let go.
Episode chapters:
00:00 Bali Retreat Announcement
01:12 Life Update: A Busy Week and a Wedding Anniversary
03:31 Elopement in Italy and Lessons in People Pleasing
05:53 The Hidden Cost of Saying Yes When You Mean No
08:12 Building Self-Worth Through Esteemable Acts
10:33 Have You Had Enough?
12:53 What It Really Takes to Be Ready for Change
15:16 Breaking the Stigma Around Alcoholism
17:39 The Power of Identification and Finding Your People
19:56 Sobriety as a Superpower
22:18 The Gift of Desperation
24:26 Divine Timing and Letting Go of Old Ideas
26:48 The Difference Between Pain and Suffering
29:09 Reflective Journal Prompts to Provoke Change
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Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026
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5 July 2026, 7:00 pm - 43 minutes 55 secondsEpisode 181. How to Truly Love Your Life, with Danni Carr
This week, Ash welcomes back her sober soul sister Danni Carr, for a wide ranging chat on Bali, yoga, and the spiritual practices that underpin their sobriety. Danni shares the Balinese philosophy of Tri Hita Karana, the three-part connection to the divine, community, and land that keeps life in balance, and reflects on how a once reluctant relationship with yoga, born from hungover gym sessions and stormed out shavasanas, slowly became the foundation of her recovery and her sense of coming home to herself.
The conversation moves into deeper territory as Danni and Ash explore what the divine means to them now, the science behind spiritual practice and the brain, and the unexpected friendships that sobriety has made possible. Danni speaks candidly about needing daily practice not to recover but to keep expanding and staying regulated, and reminds listeners that spirituality doesn't have to be serious or precise to be powerful.
It’s a heartfelt conversation between two friends about connection, consistency, and choosing a life that feels good without needing to numb out to get there.
Episode chapters:
00:00 Reconnecting in Bali: A Spiritual Journey
03:56 The Balinese Philosophy of Trihitakarana
07:23 Cultural Immersion: Sharing Bali's Rich Heritage
11:59 The Transformative Power of Yoga
18:55 Finding Stillness: The Challenge of Shivasana
21:17 Embracing Autonomy in Yoga Practice
22:45 Finding the Right Teachers
24:07 Provoking Thought Through Stillness
25:51 Navigating Friendships in Sobriety
28:56 The Importance of Consistency in Recovery
32:27 Spirituality as a Foundation for Sobriety
34:16 Understanding the Divine
37:05 The Value of Connection and Community
37:48 Finding Joy in Spiritual Practices
You can connect with Danni through:
Check out Danni’s 4 Week Sober & Transformational Challenge
IG: @howiquitalcohol
Recommendations:
The Awakened Brain by Lisa Miller
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Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026
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28 June 2026, 7:00 pm - 28 minutes 8 secondsEp 180. Come Back to Yourself: A Mini Life Update + 10 Minute Guided Meditation with Ash Butterss
This week, Ash drops in with a mini solo episode to share a life update from her recent trip to Bali and to offer something she herself has been craving - a guided meditation to help you reset. She reflects on attending the AA convention, what it’s like to travel sober after years of using airports and planes as a reason to drink, and the joy of being surrounded by like-minded people who truly understand the recovery journey. She also speaks about the not so pleasant reality of getting Bali Belly, and the lessons in surrender, self-care, and taking quick action.
For the first time on the podcast, Ash is also sharing a guided meditation. One she specifically wrote for her Behind The Smile listeners. A 10-minute guided meditation designed to bring you back to yourself, whether you’re at home, walking, or listening on the go, offering a simple way to slow down, breathe, and reconnect with what actually matters today.
Episode chapters:
00:00 Welcome, Intentions & Gratitude
00:56 Post‑Bali Life Update & Mini Solo Setup
02:10 Bali AA Convention & Joy of Sober Travel
03:11 Sunur, Ubud & Favorite Bali Rituals
05:32 Ubud Hotel Recos, Monkey Story & Bali Belly
10:11 Calling the Doctor & Reframing “What a Gift”
12:32 Coming Home Gently & Loving Life You Don’t Need a Holiday From
14:54 Returning to Meditation & Idea for a “Reset”
17:19 Guided 10‑Minute Reset Meditation
27:14 Final Reflections, Gratitude & Call to Action
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21 June 2026, 7:00 pm - 57 minutes 36 secondsEp 179. Burnout, Breathwork and Being Guided By Your Intuition, with Shanaye Kuntze
This week, Ash sits down with psychic, healer and mindset coach Shanaye Kuntze for a raw conversation about burnout, self-worth, intuition and the journey back to self. Behind a successful business and years spent helping others, Shanaye found herself completely burnt out, bed-ridden, disconnected and unable to keep going. Together, Ash and Shanaye unpack the hidden ways childhood wounds and the search for love and approval can shape our lives, careers and sense of self.
Shanaye shares how breathwork became the catalyst for profound healing and the awakening of her psychic gifts, opening the door to deeper intuition, purpose and trust in herself. They explore boundaries, rest, alignment and what it really means to create a life that feels good, not just one that looks good.
This is a powerful conversation about slowing down, listening inward, and finding the courage to follow the voice within.
Episode chapters:
00:00 Introduction to Shanaye Kuntze
02:48 Navigating Burnout and Its Impact
05:55 The Energy of Doing What You Love
08:59 The Importance of Boundaries
11:55 Hiding Behind a Smile: Shanaye's Photo Reflection
14:54 The Journey Through Burnout
18:06 The Path to Healing and Self-Discovery
21:02 The Role of Competitive Sports in Shanae's Life
24:05 Transitioning from Sports to Fitness Coaching
27:02 The Addiction to Work and Its Consequences
29:46 Finding Light After Rock Bottom
31:15 The Awakening to Breathwork
34:43 Unleashing Psychic Abilities
36:44 Creating Space for Transformation
40:27 Deepening the Breathwork Experience
43:01 The Power of Vulnerability in Community
46:02 Communicating with Spirit Guides
52:17 Reflections on Transformation
55:17 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life
You can connect with Shanaye through:
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/skbodyworks
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/skbodyworks/
Website: https://skbodyworks.com.au
Podcast: (Apple) https://podcasts.apple.com/au/podcast/the-gym-tonic-podcast/id1743895889 (Spotify) https://podcasts.apple.com/au/podcast/the-gym-tonic-podcast/id1743895889
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Upcoming Workshops:
The Reconnection Ritual | June 21st | Buy Tickets Here NOW SOLD OUT!
Next Ritual coming in September. Details launching soon.
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Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026
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14 June 2026, 7:00 pm - 27 minutes 12 secondsEp 178. Solo Episode: What Does Spirituality Have To Do With Sobriety?
This week, Ash shares a sneak peak into her memoir she's currently writing, tracing how her spiritual life has evolved in recovery. What began as skepticism and resistance toward anything “spiritual” has slowly become the foundation of her day-to-day life, influencing how she relates to herself, others, and the world around her.
She opens up about moving from a place of self-hatred, numbing, and constant chasing to an inner landscape shaped by simple, consistent practices like prayer, meditation, gratitude, and quiet acts of service. Ash reflects on how spirituality, for her, isn’t about being “woo-woo” or giving up ambition or joy, but about how you live when no one is watching and how kindly you speak to yourself when things are hard.
At its heart, this episode invites listeners to reconsider what spirituality might look like in their own lives, whether they’re on a sober path, a healing journey, or simply curious about something deeper.
Episode Chapters:
00:00 Welcome, Intentions & Gratitude
00:56 Memoir Writing & Bali Setup
03:14 Spirituality as the Foundation of Sobriety
05:39 From Non‑Believer to Spiritual Seeker
08:04 Redefining a Higher Power in Recovery
10:26 Gift of Desperation & Early God Experiments
12:48 Daily Prayer, Gratitude & Relationship with God
15:01 Meditation, Listening & Two‑Way Prayer
17:25 Depositing into the Spiritual Bank
19:42 Spiritual Solution to Alcoholism & Old Patterns
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Upcoming Workshops:
The Reconnection Ritual | June 21st | Buy Tickets Here
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Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026
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Instagram @ashbutterss
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7 June 2026, 7:00 pm - 56 minutes 40 secondsEp 177. What It Takes To Be A Sober Solo Mum, with Alisha Burns
This week, Ash sits down with Alisha Burns, founder of Solo Mum Society, to talk about the deeply personal road that led her to motherhood on her own terms. Alisha shares the heartbreak of infertility, the emotional weight of hidden struggles, and the quiet strength it took to move through a life that often looked fine from the outside while feeling very different underneath.
She opens up about the role alcohol played in her life, the pressure of social expectations, and the long process of learning to trust herself again. Ash and Alisha explore what it means to choose donor conception, to step into solo motherhood by choice, and to build a life that feels honest, intentional, and aligned with who you really are.
Throughout the conversation, Alisha reflects on the changing shape of family, the power of community support, and the liberation that can come from letting go of the version of life you thought you were meant to have. At its heart, this episode is about grief, growth, and the courage to create a future rooted in authenticity, independence, and love.
Trigger Warning: This episode discusses pregnancy loss.
Episode chapters:
00:00 Introduction to Alicia Burns and Her Journey
03:01 Navigating Motherhood and Business
06:01 Hiding Behind a Smile: Alicia's Photo Reflection
09:11 Infertility Struggles and Emotional Toll
12:09 The Impact of Alcohol on Coping Mechanisms
15:04 The End of a Marriage and New Beginnings
17:58 Finding Strength in Adversity
20:53 The Journey to Motherhood: Donor Conception
23:48 Overcoming Challenges and Embracing Change
30:45 The Journey of Single Motherhood
32:08 Navigating Isolation and Connection
34:29 The Impact of Alcohol Culture
38:52 Realizations and Transformations
43:35 Embracing Independence and Self-Discovery
46:25 The Changing Landscape of Family Dynamics
49:54 Empowerment Through Intentional Choices
52:46 Building Community and Support
54:40 Non-Negotiables for a Fulfilling Life
Website - www.solomumsociety.com
Instagram - @noneedforprincecharming
Upcoming Workshops:
The Reconnection Ritual | June 21st | Buy Tickets Here
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Rest and Renew Holistic Retreat in Bali | August 2026
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