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- 1 hour 37 minutes159. What is to be done, 2.0! Feat. Alexia Alkadi-Barbaro
This week, Madeline was in Cuba on the Nuestra America Convoy so David interviewed PhD candidate Alexia Alkadi-Barbaro about the state of American neoliberalism, the despair of American liberals, and what exactly is to be done!
PATREON:
https://www.patreon.com/c/pickmeupimscared
30 March 2026, 3:16 am - 1 hour 45 minutes158. The Armenian Genocide - Pt. 3!
This week, David and Madeline do part 3 of our episode series on the Armenian genocide!
PATREON:
https://www.patreon.com/pickmeupimscared
SOURCES:
see part 1
10 March 2026, 3:17 am - 1 hour 40 minutes157. The Armenian Genocide - Pt. 2!
This week, David and Madeline do part 2 of our episode series on the Armenian genocide!
PATREON (for bonus content related to this episode):
https://www.patreon.com/pickmeupimscared
SOURCES:
see part 1 :)
24 February 2026, 11:14 pm - 1 hour 33 minutes156. The Armenian Genocide - Pt. 1
This week, David and Madeline talk about the Armenian genocide.
PATREON:
https://www.patreon.com/pickmeupimscared/posts
SOURCES:
Genocide and Persecution: The Armenian Genocide, ed. Noah Berlatsky
Roving Revolutionaries: Armenians and the Connected Revolutions in the Russian, Iranian, and Ottoman Worlds, Houri Berberian
Armenian Golgotha: A Memoir of the Armenian Genocide, Grigoris Balakian
The Armenian Massacres 1894-1896: U.S. Media Testimony, ed. Arman Kirakossian
They Can Live in the Desert and Nowhere Else: A History of the Armenian Genocide, Ronald Grigor Suny.
The Banality of Indifference: Zionism and the Armenian Genocide: Yair Auron
6 January 2026, 3:26 am - 2 hours 21 seconds155. Nazis, Cookies, and Ronald Reagan -- Pt. 4
This week, Madeline and David talk about the history of American intervention in Ukraine, part 4!
PATREON:
https://www.patreon.com/pickmeupimscared/posts
SOURCES:
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/azov-ban-lifted/
https://www.kyivpost.com/post/6652
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/putin-willing-negotiate/
https://esc.nccu.edu.tw/PageDoc/Detail?fid=7801&id=6963
https://www.britannica.com/event/2022-Russian-invasion-of-Ukraine
https://www.hrw.org/news/2022/01/19/new-language-requirement-raises-concerns-ukraine#
https://www.reuters.com/article/us-cohen-ukraine-commentary-idUSKBN1GV2TY/
https://www.europarl.europa.eu/doceo/document/E-10-2024-001576_EN.html
https://edition.cnn.com/2022/03/29/europe/ukraine-azov-movement-far-right-intl-cmd
https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-27173857
https://www.irb-cisr.gc.ca/en/country-information/rir/Pages/index.aspx?doc=456617
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxcB0PI4ZLg
https://www.salon.com/2014/02/25/is_the_us_backing_neo_nazis_in_ukraine_partner/
https://www.pbs.org/newshour/classroom/daily-videos/2014/03/crimeans-vote-to-join-russia
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/cia-ukraine-russia/
https://www.democracynow.org/2014/2/20/a_new_cold_war_ukraine_violence
https://truthout.org/articles/the-ukraine-mess-that-nuland-made/
https://www.gis.huri.harvard.edu/king-dead
https://www.opendemocracy.net/en/odr/bandera-mythologies-and-their-traps-for-ukraine/
https://www.wsws.org/en/articles/2023/03/08/wdtz-m08.html
https://liberationnews.org/nazis-in-ukraine-seeing-through-the-fog-of-the-information-war/
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/maidan-ukraine/
https://fpif.org/seven-decades-nazi-collaboration-americas-dirty-little-ukraine-secret/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JrMiSQAGOS4
https://2009-2017.state.gov/p/eur/rls/rm/2013/dec/218804.htm
https://www.cato.org/commentary/americas-ukraine-hypocrisy
https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-26079957
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93eyhO8VTdg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VjcMoDFU1xg
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2022/feb/28/nato-expansion-war-russia-ukraine
https://theintercept.com/2024/06/22/ukraine-azov-battalion-us-training-ban/
https://www.jstor.org/stable/27336025?seq=12
https://en.al-akhbar.com/news/inside-ned-s-ukraine-operation--how--revolutions--are-engine
15 December 2025, 10:11 pm - 2 hours 13 minutes154. Nazis, Cookies, and Ronald Reagan -- Pt. 3
This week, Madeline and David talk about the history of American intervention in Ukraine, part 3!
PATREON:
https://www.patreon.com/pickmeupimscared/posts
SOURCES:
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/azov-ban-lifted/
https://www.kyivpost.com/post/6652
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/putin-willing-negotiate/
https://esc.nccu.edu.tw/PageDoc/Detail?fid=7801&id=6963
https://www.britannica.com/event/2022-Russian-invasion-of-Ukraine
https://www.hrw.org/news/2022/01/19/new-language-requirement-raises-concerns-ukraine#
https://www.reuters.com/article/us-cohen-ukraine-commentary-idUSKBN1GV2TY/
https://www.europarl.europa.eu/doceo/document/E-10-2024-001576_EN.html
https://edition.cnn.com/2022/03/29/europe/ukraine-azov-movement-far-right-intl-cmd
https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-27173857
https://www.irb-cisr.gc.ca/en/country-information/rir/Pages/index.aspx?doc=456617
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxcB0PI4ZLg
https://www.salon.com/2014/02/25/is_the_us_backing_neo_nazis_in_ukraine_partner/
https://www.pbs.org/newshour/classroom/daily-videos/2014/03/crimeans-vote-to-join-russia
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/cia-ukraine-russia/
https://www.democracynow.org/2014/2/20/a_new_cold_war_ukraine_violence
https://truthout.org/articles/the-ukraine-mess-that-nuland-made/
https://www.gis.huri.harvard.edu/king-dead
https://www.opendemocracy.net/en/odr/bandera-mythologies-and-their-traps-for-ukraine/
https://www.wsws.org/en/articles/2023/03/08/wdtz-m08.html
https://liberationnews.org/nazis-in-ukraine-seeing-through-the-fog-of-the-information-war/
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/maidan-ukraine/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQ930lCvSK8&list=PLDl9_LuL-uw7Ot9l6V6DTbZg1Zhv98gUv&index=9
https://fpif.org/seven-decades-nazi-collaboration-americas-dirty-little-ukraine-secret/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JrMiSQAGOS4
https://2009-2017.state.gov/p/eur/rls/rm/2013/dec/218804.htm
https://www.cato.org/commentary/americas-ukraine-hypocrisy
https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-26079957
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93eyhO8VTdg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VjcMoDFU1xg
https://www.jeffsachs.org/newspaper-articles/nato-chief-admits-expansion-behind-russian-invasion
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2022/feb/28/nato-expansion-war-russia-ukraine
https://theintercept.com/2024/06/22/ukraine-azov-battalion-us-training-ban/
https://www.jstor.org/stable/27336025?seq=12
https://ourworld.unu.edu/en/what-do-the-world-bank-and-imf-have-to-do-with-the-ukraine-conflict
https://en.al-akhbar.com/news/inside-ned-s-ukraine-operation--how--revolutions--are-engine
9 December 2025, 3:20 am - 1 hour 56 minutes153. Nazis, Cookies, and Ronald Reagan -- Pt. 2
This week, Madeline and David talk about the history of American intervention in Ukraine, part 2!
PATREON:
https://www.patreon.com/pickmeupimscared/posts
SOURCES:
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/azov-ban-lifted/
https://www.kyivpost.com/post/6652
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/putin-willing-negotiate/
https://esc.nccu.edu.tw/PageDoc/Detail?fid=7801&id=6963
https://www.britannica.com/event/2022-Russian-invasion-of-Ukraine
https://www.hrw.org/news/2022/01/19/new-language-requirement-raises-concerns-ukraine#
https://www.reuters.com/article/us-cohen-ukraine-commentary-idUSKBN1GV2TY/
https://www.europarl.europa.eu/doceo/document/E-10-2024-001576_EN.html
https://edition.cnn.com/2022/03/29/europe/ukraine-azov-movement-far-right-intl-cmd
https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-27173857
https://www.irb-cisr.gc.ca/en/country-information/rir/Pages/index.aspx?doc=456617
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxcB0PI4ZLg
https://www.salon.com/2014/02/25/is_the_us_backing_neo_nazis_in_ukraine_partner/
https://www.pbs.org/newshour/classroom/daily-videos/2014/03/crimeans-vote-to-join-russia
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/cia-ukraine-russia/
https://www.democracynow.org/2014/2/20/a_new_cold_war_ukraine_violence
https://truthout.org/articles/the-ukraine-mess-that-nuland-made/
https://www.gis.huri.harvard.edu/king-dead
https://www.opendemocracy.net/en/odr/bandera-mythologies-and-their-traps-for-ukraine/
https://www.wsws.org/en/articles/2023/03/08/wdtz-m08.html
https://liberationnews.org/nazis-in-ukraine-seeing-through-the-fog-of-the-information-war/
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/maidan-ukraine/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQ930lCvSK8&list=PLDl9_LuL-uw7Ot9l6V6DTbZg1Zhv98gUv&index=9
https://fpif.org/seven-decades-nazi-collaboration-americas-dirty-little-ukraine-secret/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JrMiSQAGOS4
https://2009-2017.state.gov/p/eur/rls/rm/2013/dec/218804.htm
https://www.cato.org/commentary/americas-ukraine-hypocrisy
https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-26079957
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93eyhO8VTdg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VjcMoDFU1xg
https://www.jeffsachs.org/newspaper-articles/nato-chief-admits-expansion-behind-russian-invasion
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2022/feb/28/nato-expansion-war-russia-ukraine
https://theintercept.com/2024/06/22/ukraine-azov-battalion-us-training-ban/
https://www.jstor.org/stable/27336025?seq=12
https://ourworld.unu.edu/en/what-do-the-world-bank-and-imf-have-to-do-with-the-ukraine-conflict
https://en.al-akhbar.com/news/inside-ned-s-ukraine-operation--how--revolutions--are-engine
18 November 2025, 6:38 am - 1 hour 57 minutes152. Nazis, Cookies, and Ronald Reagan -- Pt. 1
This week, Madeline and David talk about the history of American intervention in Ukraine!
PATREON:
https://www.patreon.com/pickmeupimscared/posts
SOURCES:
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/azov-ban-lifted/
https://www.kyivpost.com/post/6652
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/putin-willing-negotiate/
https://esc.nccu.edu.tw/PageDoc/Detail?fid=7801&id=6963
https://www.britannica.com/event/2022-Russian-invasion-of-Ukraine
https://www.hrw.org/news/2022/01/19/new-language-requirement-raises-concerns-ukraine#
https://www.reuters.com/article/us-cohen-ukraine-commentary-idUSKBN1GV2TY/
https://www.europarl.europa.eu/doceo/document/E-10-2024-001576_EN.html
https://edition.cnn.com/2022/03/29/europe/ukraine-azov-movement-far-right-intl-cmd
https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-27173857
https://www.irb-cisr.gc.ca/en/country-information/rir/Pages/index.aspx?doc=456617
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxcB0PI4ZLg
https://www.salon.com/2014/02/25/is_the_us_backing_neo_nazis_in_ukraine_partner/
https://www.pbs.org/newshour/classroom/daily-videos/2014/03/crimeans-vote-to-join-russia
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/cia-ukraine-russia/
https://www.democracynow.org/2014/2/20/a_new_cold_war_ukraine_violence
https://truthout.org/articles/the-ukraine-mess-that-nuland-made/
https://www.gis.huri.harvard.edu/king-dead
https://www.opendemocracy.net/en/odr/bandera-mythologies-and-their-traps-for-ukraine/
https://www.wsws.org/en/articles/2023/03/08/wdtz-m08.html
https://liberationnews.org/nazis-in-ukraine-seeing-through-the-fog-of-the-information-war/
https://responsiblestatecraft.org/maidan-ukraine/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQ930lCvSK8&list=PLDl9_LuL-uw7Ot9l6V6DTbZg1Zhv98gUv&index=9
https://fpif.org/seven-decades-nazi-collaboration-americas-dirty-little-ukraine-secret/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JrMiSQAGOS4
https://2009-2017.state.gov/p/eur/rls/rm/2013/dec/218804.htm
https://www.cato.org/commentary/americas-ukraine-hypocrisy
https://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-26079957
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93eyhO8VTdg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VjcMoDFU1xg
https://www.jeffsachs.org/newspaper-articles/nato-chief-admits-expansion-behind-russian-invasion
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2022/feb/28/nato-expansion-war-russia-ukraine
https://theintercept.com/2024/06/22/ukraine-azov-battalion-us-training-ban/
https://www.jstor.org/stable/27336025?seq=12
https://ourworld.unu.edu/en/what-do-the-world-bank-and-imf-have-to-do-with-the-ukraine-conflict
https://en.al-akhbar.com/news/inside-ned-s-ukraine-operation--how--revolutions--are-engine
3 November 2025, 6:10 am - 1 hour 43 minutes151. Vuvuzula Part 2!
This week, Madeline & David finish up our two-parter on Venezuela, including conversations about Maduro, the Peace & Freedom website, and why it doesn't matter who is wearing a captain's hat and selling fentanyl to your kids!
PATREON:
https://www.patreon.com/c/pickmeupimscared/posts
SOURCES:
- https://www.cia.gov/readingroom/docs/CIA-RDP79-00927A004600120002-9.pdf
- https://www.jstor.org/stable/pdf/45329740.pdf
- https://www.cambridge.org/core/services/aop-cambridge-core/content/view/F419409CE36569D0BBC81389843FBDCB/S0023879100024845a.pdf/cattle-corruption-and-venezuelan-state-formation-during-the-regime-of-juan-vicente-gomez-1908-35.pdf
- https://www.reuters.com/article/world/us-to-provide-venezuelas-guaido-with-52-million-in-funding-idUSKBN1W934P/
- https://www.sociostudies.org/almanac/articles/the_us_methods_and_goals_to_destabilize_venezuela/
- https://www.newstatesman.com/long-reads/2008/11/chavez-venezuela-opposition
- https://www.nytimes.com/1987/08/17/world/abrams-denies-wrongdoing-in-shipping-arms-to-contras.html
- https://www.reuters.com/article/world/how-venezuela-got-here-a-timeline-of-the-political-crisis-idUSKCN1PJ03O/?gad_source=1&gad_campaignid=22314562799&gbraid=0AAAAA-mwunF8-09P-Awp_HNmn1VHy7Dft&gclid=Cj0KCQjwo63HBhCKARIsAHOHV_Ugl_qLm4x2Feoh9JAYu3pdpveYzKTTgRnXkyvnLky86HmpDFgT5UsaAl3tEALw_wcB
- https://digitalcommons.fiu.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=1162&context=classracecorporatepower
- https://www.blackagendareport.com/venezuela-imperialism-and-global-struggle-sovereignty
- https://venezuelanalysis.com/analysis/14263/
- https://dc.ewu.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=1008&context=srcw_2019
- https://history.state.gov/historicaldocuments/frus1921v02/d897
- https://www.nytimes.com/1952/09/21/archives/opposition-party-in-venezuela-test-copei-one-of-2-groups-against.html
- https://peoplesworld.org/article/venezuela-2002-the-coup-heard-around-the-world/
- https://www.theguardian.com/world/2002/apr/21/usa.venezuela
- https://www.theguardian.com/world/2002/apr/21/usa.venezuela
- https://www.nytimes.com/1977/02/21/archives/venezuelans-are-denying-perez-was-paid-by-cia.html
- https://time.com/archive/6703965/interview-on-drugs-debt-and-poverty-venezuelas-carlos-andres-perez/
- https://www.cia.gov/readingroom/docs/CIA-RDP80R01731R002400050019-5.pdf
- https://www.nytimes.com/1977/02/22/archives/caracas-assails-us-for-payoffs-report-president-perez-calls.html
- https://www.reuters.com/article/world/us-to-provide-venezuelas-guaido-with-52-million-in-funding-idUSKBN1W934P/
- https://liberationnews.org/oppose-us-threats-against-venezuela/
- https://misionverdad.com/memoria/aquel-narcoestado-llamado-puntofijismo-0
- https://www.nytimes.com/1991/08/12/business/world-class-fraud-bcci-pulled-it-off-special-report-end-twisted-trail-piggy-bank.html?pagewanted=all
- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IF-IYdsFGrw
- https://www.wikileaks.org/plusd/cables/07CARACAS1637_a.html
- https://www.wikileaks.org/plusd/cables/04CARACAS2224_a.html
- https://venezuelanalysis.com/analysis/6750/
- https://www.nytimes.com/1977/03/01/archives/cia-money-flowed-but-us-aides-insist-it-was-for-intelligence.html
- https://digitallibrary.un.org/record/3974230?ln=en&v=pdf#files
- https://www.sumate.org/documentos/Varios/NED_Grant_Agreement_25septiembre2003.pdf
- https://www.ohchr.org/sites/default/files/documents/issues/hrbodies/hrcouncil/ffmv/a-hrc-60-crp-4-annex-eng.pdf
- https://www.counterpunch.org/2014/04/25/the-dirty-hand-of-the-national-endowment-for-democracy-in-venezuela/
20 October 2025, 3:31 pm - 1 hour 58 minutes150. But What About Vuvuzula?
This week, Madeline and David talk about Venezuela, Chavez, and mustaches!
PATREON:
https://www.patreon.com/pickmeupimscared/
SOURCES:
- ttps://www.cia.gov/readingroom/docs/CIA-RDP79-00927A004600120002-9.pdf
- https://www.jstor.org/stable/pdf/45329740.pdf
- https://www.cambridge.org/core/services/aop-cambridge-core/content/view/F419409CE36569D0BBC81389843FBDCB/S0023879100024845a.pdf/cattle-corruption-and-venezuelan-state-formation-during-the-regime-of-juan-vicente-gomez-1908-35.pdf
- https://www.reuters.com/article/world/us-to-provide-venezuelas-guaido-with-52-million-in-funding-idUSKBN1W934P/
- https://www.sociostudies.org/almanac/articles/the_us_methods_and_goals_to_destabilize_venezuela/
- https://www.newstatesman.com/long-reads/2008/11/chavez-venezuela-opposition
- https://www.nytimes.com/1987/08/17/world/abrams-denies-wrongdoing-in-shipping-arms-to-contras.html
- https://www.reuters.com/article/world/how-venezuela-got-here-a-timeline-of-the-political-crisis-idUSKCN1PJ03O/?gad_source=1&gad_campaignid=22314562799&gbraid=0AAAAA-mwunF8-09P-Awp_HNmn1VHy7Dft&gclid=Cj0KCQjwo63HBhCKARIsAHOHV_Ugl_qLm4x2Feoh9JAYu3pdpveYzKTTgRnXkyvnLky86HmpDFgT5UsaAl3tEALw_wcB
- https://digitalcommons.fiu.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=1162&context=classracecorporatepower
- https://www.blackagendareport.com/venezuela-imperialism-and-global-struggle-sovereignty
- https://venezuelanalysis.com/analysis/14263/
- https://dc.ewu.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=1008&context=srcw_2019
- https://history.state.gov/historicaldocuments/frus1921v02/d897
- https://www.nytimes.com/1952/09/21/archives/opposition-party-in-venezuela-test-copei-one-of-2-groups-against.html
- https://peoplesworld.org/article/venezuela-2002-the-coup-heard-around-the-world/
- https://www.theguardian.com/world/2002/apr/21/usa.venezuela
- https://www.theguardian.com/world/2002/apr/21/usa.venezuela
- https://www.nytimes.com/1977/02/21/archives/venezuelans-are-denying-perez-was-paid-by-cia.html
- https://time.com/archive/6703965/interview-on-drugs-debt-and-poverty-venezuelas-carlos-andres-perez/
- https://www.cia.gov/readingroom/docs/CIA-RDP80R01731R002400050019-5.pdf
- https://www.nytimes.com/1977/02/22/archives/caracas-assails-us-for-payoffs-report-president-perez-calls.html
- https://www.reuters.com/article/world/us-to-provide-venezuelas-guaido-with-52-million-in-funding-idUSKBN1W934P/
- https://liberationnews.org/oppose-us-threats-against-venezuela/
- https://misionverdad.com/memoria/aquel-narcoestado-llamado-puntofijismo-0
- https://www.nytimes.com/1991/08/12/business/world-class-fraud-bcci-pulled-it-off-special-report-end-twisted-trail-piggy-bank.html?pagewanted=all
- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IF-IYdsFGrw
- https://www.wikileaks.org/plusd/cables/07CARACAS1637_a.html
- https://www.wikileaks.org/plusd/cables/04CARACAS2224_a.html
- https://venezuelanalysis.com/analysis/6750/
- https://www.nytimes.com/1977/03/01/archives/cia-money-flowed-but-us-aides-insist-it-was-for-intelligence.html
14 October 2025, 5:35 am - 2 hours 40 minutes149. Adrian Zenz Wants to Hit Children & Destroy China!
This week, Madeline and David talk about Xinjiang, the Uyghurs, Donald Trump, and BDSM clubs in Taiwan!
PATREON:
https://www.patreon.com/pickmeupimscared/posts
SOURCES:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1BmgLBs4h20BYpty5svAQZ3nI4GxM7vhDM2gWPA6f9QY/edit?tab=t.0
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