What happens when relationship doubt feels so real you believe you have to leave?

In this episode of Awaken Into Love, Kiyomi sits down with Cameron to explore his lived experience with Relationship OCD (ROCD), from the moment doubt appeared early in his relationship, to the shame, emotional suppression, and fear that followed.

Cameron shares what it was like navigating ROCD as a man, including the pressure to "stay strong," the belief that emotions were something to fix, and the deep confusion that arises when love and anxiety collide. Together, we explore why ROCD feels so convincing, how disconnection can feel genuinely threatening, and what shifted when Cameron stopped trying to solve his thoughts and instead began allowing his emotions.

It's an honest, human conversation about learning to sit with discomfort, softening self-judgment, and discovering a more grounded way of relating to yourself and to your partner.

This episode is for you if:

-ROCD or relationship anxiety feels too real to ignore

-You feel pressure to know how you feel at all times

-Disconnection in relationships feels threatening

-You've struggled with shame around emotions

-You want to hear a man's real, lived experience with ROCD

You are not broken. You are not failing. And, you are not alone. (#YANA)

✨ Want to start your healing journey? Take the FREE ROCD/Relationship Anxiety Quiz and get instant clarity on what kind of support might help you next.

Today, Manon (Awaken into Love Director) sits with Martina, a longtime Awaken into Love ROCD/RA community member and HOME member (our ROCD/RA peer-support group) whose journey will resonate with anyone who has ever questioned their relationship, doubted their feelings, or felt shame about their intrusive thoughts.

In this deeply vulnerable conversation, Martina shares how ROCD first showed up three days into her relationship, how misunderstandings from therapists intensified her anxiety, and how years later, during a stressful life transition, her symptoms resurfaced in painful and confusing ways.

She opens up about:

-intrusive images and "false attraction" spikes

-emotional numbness and derealization

-the shame of not recognizing her partner

-comparing her partner to others

-the impact of OCD on her long-term relationship

-what finally helped her truly heal

We hope our beloved Martina's courage brings you comfort and hope.

If you're interested in trying the ROCD/RA HOME peer-support for FREE: http://home.rocdcourse.com/join

• The paradox of wanting change while fearing it
• Common fears around outgrowing your partner or making the wrong choice
• How society's messages about purpose can trigger obsessive thinking
• Why community is core medicine for OCD and ROCD

We're back for season 2 of the Awaken into Love podcast! In this first episode, Kiyomi and Manon explore what it really means to thrive with OCD and ROCD, beyond perfectionism, societal pressure, and comparison.

This is the first part of the conversation. For the complete VIP episode, our Thriving Masterclass, and the LIVE deepening circle on Sept 27, join us inside our new membership: Awaken into Life.

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Awaken into Life

If you are ready to explore LIFE beyond ROCD/OCD and find deeper love, peace, purpose, and community.

Join us here!

In this new episode, we sit down with Kim, a beloved member of the Awaken Into Love community, to talk about her powerful journey through ROCD (Relationship OCD), anxiety, and healing. Kim opens up about discovering ROCD later in life after years of uncertainty, perfectionism, and self-doubt—and how the Awaken Into Love course and peer support community (formerly KIC, now HOME) helped her find clarity, resilience, and ultimately, love.

Kim shares:

-Her early experiences with OCD, spiritual scrupulosity, and hyper-responsibility

-The grief of missed connections and a life spent waiting for certainty

-The moment she found ROCD content online and felt seen for the first time -How the course helped her shift from obsessive research to real healing

-Why joining the group felt terrifying—but ultimately transformative

-The role of grief, acceptance, and empowerment in building a healthy, grounded relationship

-How she learned that love is a choice—and that being human means embracing imperfection

-Her heartfelt advice to her younger self and others just beginning this journey Kim's story is one of vulnerability, courage, and awakening—a reminder that healing isn't linear, but it is possible.

Whether you're struggling with ROCD, relationship anxiety, or looking for real stories of hope, this episode is for you.

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In this new episode led by Manon, our Director & ROCD/RA Expert at Awaken into Love, Sherin (Awaken into Love Graduate & Member of Our HOME peer-support group) shares her struggles with Relationship Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (ROCD), detailing the shame and guilt that accompanied her feelings of disconnection from her partner.

After two years of suffering in silence, discovering the existence of ROCD brought immense relief and a sense of validation. Through her journey at Awaken into Love, she learned the importance of self-trust and self-compassion, recognizing that her intrusive thoughts do not define love. » ROCD FREE CHECKLIST: https://free.rocdcourse.com/checklist

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» AIL HOME (PEER-SUPPORT): https://home.rocdcourse.com/join

Disclaimer: All of the information listed in this channel is for informative, motivational, and educational purposes only. Please note that this channel is not meant to diagnose you or treat a mental health disorder but serves only as education and motivation.

In this deeply personal episode, Kiyomi reflects on the journey that began in 2017 with her first vulnerable video about Relationship OCD (ROCD). She shares how that one act of courage has grown into a global movement through Awaken into Love, helping thousands find words for their pain and a path toward healing. Kiyomi revisits her journals, old Facebook photos, and memories from 17 years of living with ROCD. She shares how her pain became a portal for transformation—not just for herself, but for thousands of others around the world. She introduces the four core pillars of Awaken into Love: Humanness – Embracing the shared experience of suffering and healing. Love – Redefining love in its most truthful and unconditional form. Empowerment – Reclaiming your worth and releasing the shame and hyper-responsibility often tied to ROCD. Awakening – Using ROCD as a catalyst for growth, connection, and purpose. Kiyomi opens up about stepping back from the spotlight, expanding the team with incredible coaches, and continuing to grow behind the scenes. She speaks of healing, her now-thriving relationship, and becoming a mother—proof that life can radically transform. She ends with a loving invitation to join the free 31-Day "Back to Love" Challenge, a journey she's taking alongside the community to reconnect with love, self-compassion, and hope. https://free.rocdcourse.com/backtolove

✨ "Your ROCD doesn't define you—it awakens you. You're not alone, and you are right where you're meant to be." ✨

» ROCD FREE CHECKLIST: https://rocdcourse.com/the-checklist » ROCD/RA ACADEMY (COURSE): https://rocdcourse.com/ » AIL HOME (PEER-SUPPORT): https://rocdcourse.com/peer-support Disclaimer: All of the information listed in this channel is for informative, motivational, and educational purposes only. Please note that this channel is not meant to diagnose you or treat a mental health disorder but serves only as education and motivation. #ROCD, #Relationshipocd, #Relationshipanxiety, #OCD #anxiety #mentalhealth #love

🎙 In this powerful and vulnerable episode of the Awaken into Love Podcast, Manon sits down with Isla, a graduate of the ROCD course and former member of HOME, our peer support group (formerly known as KIC). From a small seaside town in Scotland, Isla opens up about her six-year journey with ROCD, retroactive jealousy OCD, neurodivergence (ADHD and exploring autism), and the hidden grief beneath obsessive thoughts. She shares how ROCD impacted all of her long-term relationships, how not knowing what she was experiencing made her feel broken, and how finally putting a name to it transformed her entire life. Through somatic healing, inner child work, and the power of community, Isla has learned to live with tenderness — toward her thoughts, her younger self, and her relationship. 💛 This is a story of healing, awakening, and becoming whole — not in spite of ROCD, but through it. » ROCD FREE CHECKLIST: https://rocdcourse.com/the-checklist » ROCD/RA ACADEMY (COURSE): https://rocdcourse.com/ » AIL HOME (PEER-SUPPORT): https://rocdcourse.com/peer-support Disclaimer: All of the information listed in this channel is for informative, motivational, and educational purposes only. Please note that this channel is not meant to diagnose you or treat a mental health disorder but serves only as education and motivation.

In this heartfelt episode of the Awaken into Love Podcast, host Manon (Awaken into Love Director) sits down with Monica, a cherished member of the Awaken into Love community, to discuss her transformative journey through Relationship OCD (ROCD).

Monica shares her story of discovering ROCD after a challenging period in her relationship and how she learned to navigate OCD, anxiety, and depression. Through supportive community and personal exploration, she moved from a place of fear and self-doubt to one of empowerment and self-compassion.

This episode explores the power of community, the importance of self-awareness, and how sometimes the hardest part of healing is allowing oneself to rest and accept where they are in the moment. A powerful reminder that healing is not linear but a continuous dance between doing, understanding, and simply being.

🫶🏻 On Discovering ROCD: Monica became aware of her ROCD after a challenging fight with her partner in July 2022, leading to a downward spiral. She realized these patterns had been present long before she could name them.

🫶🏻 The Power of Community: Monica highlights how the Awaken into Love community provided a safe, compassionate space to be vulnerable, share experiences, and feel understood—a crucial element in her healing journey.

🫶🏻 Mental Compulsions: She struggled with internal compulsions like ruminating and checking, finding freedom through practices like "eyeballs out" (shifting focus to the external world) and the "Triple A" method—agree, allow, and attack.

🫶🏻 Healing Isn't Linear: Monica reflects on how healing isn't about reaching an endpoint but continuously peeling back layers, learning to respond with compassion, and embracing stillness without self-judgment.

🫶🏻 Self-Trust and Empowerment: Moving away from external validation, Monica has learned to trust herself, embrace her own healing power, and take ownership of her journey, recognizing her inner strength and resilience.

Here's to being human!

» ROCD FREE CHECKLIST: https://rocdcourse.com/the-checklist

» ROCD/RA ACADEMY (COURSE): https://rocdcourse.com/

» AIL HOME (PEER-SUPPORT): https://rocdcourse.com/peer-support

Disclaimer: All of the information listed in this channel is for informative, motivational, and educational purposes only. Please note that this channel is not meant to diagnose you or treat a mental health disorder but serves only as education and motivation. #ROCD, #Relationshipocd, #Relationshipanxiety, #OCD #anxiety #mentalhealth #love

How do you navigate big life decisions when you experience Relationship OCD? How do you make "big" steps when you experience thoughts that tell you to run? Maybe you're thinking about comitting deeper, moving into together, getting engaged, getting married, having a baby, getting a pet together or maybe it's another transition that doesn't seem "big" in societies standards. Whatever it is! This is for you. In this podcast episode, Jilian, our Awaken into Love Coach and Colorado therapist talks about how to use this period as a way to come closer and not further apart.

Meet Jillian Pezzino! Jillian received hers master's degree in the field of clinical mental health counseling in the sunny state of Colorado. Currently, she specializes in coaching individuals who struggle with anxiety around the "rightness" of their relationship. This work has become a true passion of hers as a result of her own journey navigating ROCD.

Book a consult with Jilian! https://www.awakenintolove.com/therapy-coaching

Could changing the way you relate to Relationship OCD/Relationship Anxiety help heal ROCD? Understand how parts work, art therapy and acceptance commitment therapy can help your own healing journey with ROCD. This is especially important for people who are looking for new ways of healing.

Meet Kat Williamson, our Awaken into Love coach. Kat is here to help you move through the storm of relationship anxiety and ROCD. She is currently completely her second postgraduate degree in counseling psychology with her initial training being in art therapy. She draws on her own personal and professional experience to coach clients to gain relief from the constant anxiety and doubts of relationship anxiety.