After some solid weeks of racing, content creation and work related stress I finally got to a point where my body and mind just gave up. I talk about a lot of things that have come from that point and how I have dealt with this. My brain is still not really right but I am getting there.

Thank you everyone for your support over this time.

I also talk about my history with the Mechwarrior series over the past, multiple decades, from Mechwarrior 2: Mercenaries, right through to Mechwarrior 5: Clans.

The series is what got me into content creation and online communities in the first place. It has been a long journey over the last decade and a bit but this is where it all started and it was fun, but frustrating to get back into the series. Mechwarrior 5: Clans is great, just wish it was easier to use with my rig.

I am going through a rough patch right now. Things are not right in my head, but I thought I would still give you a podcast to let you know what has been happening and why I am quiet about content.

After a batch of incidents started to get me down, it all came to a head in the past 48 hours, with work and family combining to make me the worst I have been for a while now.

Being a parent has been the hardest part of the current situation. Knowing what to do in different situations is not natural sometimes, and I need to get better at it.

Anyway, after a period of negative chat, I explained my love for Cap Carter and why I went to see him live in concert, even if it was on my own.

This week, I accidentally fell into a discussion about my dad and the time of his passing, how I dealt with that, and what exactly went down. I run through the timeline to explain why Bathurst meant so much to me but also why golf means the world to me, too. I discuss those final days and how the stress just built up and it all became too much. I then chatted about how, after he had passed, everything seemed to just settle down, and the focus on other things was a great distraction as we prepared for the funeral. This isn't a topic that I was ever really going to go into, but it is a topic that I am glad I was able to talk about in full. It really was a weird time in my life, and I am glad I could share it.

Then I move across to chat about my first impressions on the new survival game in early access now on Steam, The Last Plague: Blight. I have always loved survival games and enjoy the aspect of losing myself in the world and understanding better how to survive in the world as I go along. This survival game is a lot more in-depth than most I have played, and I am starting to really find it hooking into me the more I go along. There is so much to discover in this game, and being early access, it has a long way to go, but currently, the core gameplay loop is there, and I can't wait to play more and see what they can do with it going forward.

In this episode of the podcast I have a chat about how hard it is to silence my brain all the time. I talk about the exhaustion that comes from having your brain on all the time and how it made the near bankruptcy even harder and the constant battle to get back on my feet just painful.

I discuss why this makes it really hard to be a parent as well right now and how I struggle with the idea of being a good parent. There is just always something going on to make it easy to doubt myself on this topic.

Finally, I talk about my ability to lose myself in the old game, Factorio. Especially being able to chuck it on the steam deck and disappear into the mundane that is that world and let my brain focus on something else rather than everything else it usually does at any given second of the day.

In this episode of the podcast, I discuss my need to constantly balance things in my life and how my content fits into that right now. My brain is always trying to second-guess me and doubt what I am doing, but I keep pushing on—sometimes too hard.

I explain the reason for the now-common break in this podcast, how I have overcommitted to the iRacing part of my content, and the need to scale back as I constantly strive to balance everything in my life.

Finally, I discuss my obsession with the artist Ren right now and all the content creators reacting to his videos. I explain why I have gone down the rabbit hole of his content again and urge you all to consume some of his content, the way God intended, on YouTube.

Podcast: Nothing but Ramblings

Episode: A Mental Health Diary - Anxiety: Story Time with Wilko

In this heartfelt episode of Nothing but Ramblings, Wilko opens up about his personal battle with anxiety. Through raw, unfiltered storytelling, he takes you on a journey into the everyday struggles and moments that define living with anxiety. From unexpected triggers to moments of clarity, Wilko shares relatable insights and offers comfort to those who may be facing similar challenges. Whether you're dealing with mental health issues yourself or supporting someone who is, this episode provides a compassionate and honest look into the complexities of anxiety.

Join the conversation and be reminded: you're never alone in your journey. #MyJourney

Guess who's back, back again. I have enjoyed the experiment, but I have returned to the original idea again, and the podcast is returning to the feeds for you all. There is a YouTube version, too, but I have removed all the fluff and brought the podcast without the distraction of anything else.

YouTube video here - https://youtu.be/TGE__jICg_Q

Yes i am back straight away with another quick video. maybe I should not have recorded this as I forgot so much for the flight. oh well.

In this episode I discuss how my life can be chaos and when it does spiral into a mess how I deal with that now. I talk about the change in mind set towards life's obstacles these days compared to what it was in the past.

I discuss the way I will be tracking my progress going forward into the future with Locked on Lads content and what I hold important in my content.

Have a great day all

That's right, I am back. We have the Rally in just a few days, and I have finally successfully recorded content for you all. In this episode, I discuss my life, where I am at, and what changes I am making to be a better person. I discuss what Locked on Lads means to me and where I want it to go in the future. I chat about my weight and how I am trying to be a better person and help those around me.

Let me know if any of this means anything to you and what you want from me in the future.

Just a quick episode to explain where I have been and where the content has been for the last 12 months. If you are interested in donating to our Box Rally campaign, head to www.lockedonlads.com/charity

Thanks for listening, and I hope to chat with you all soon.

This week I take a moment to chat about my experience chasing mice around the house, cars around a track and trolls around the internet. More chat about my I-racing career and how that is travelling and more racing games including Grid that have my attention still. I discuss the grave mistake made by one of my favourite people in the world, Julian Gerighty, as a follow up to last weeks episode about being positive and how responding to negativity on the internet is the worse thing you can do. Finally, I spend the rest of the episode convincing you why you should book that trip to go to that event to spend time with those that are as passionate as you are about things you love. That's right, book that trip to PAX Aus next year and really have some fun.