Crooked Butterfly Podcast

Brian Chontosh

This is me, sharing where I'm arriving in thoughts, perspectives, and ideas after a dynamic 21 years with the Marine Corps and wrestling with "Who Am I"; authentically, and Who Do I Want To Be" now that the military construct is not forcibly shadowing my life. I've found that Nature and tackling the physical & emotional challenges that ultra endurance adventuring provide more insight and clarity on the why's of my experiences and the where's I can seek continued personal growth.

  • 24 minutes 6 seconds
    Keeping Agency & Self Regulation

    A lot going on in the world and life the last 2 weeks. Spent a good part of that time ruminating on a comment I received regarding the last episode.

    11 March 2026, 7:00 am
  • 24 minutes 33 seconds
    Trading Hate for Hate

    Such a narrow narrow mindset.

    15 February 2026, 2:00 pm
  • 26 minutes 12 seconds
    What's The Lesson In This For Me

    Or maybe, there always doesn't have to be a lesson in everything all the time - so just flow a little bit.

    5 February 2026, 7:00 pm
  • 25 minutes 23 seconds
    Doing 'Hard' Is Relative & Needs To Be Purposeful

    Do Hard Things. Doing Hard for the sake of Hard is not really what it's about.


    It needs to be purposeful and is relative. Today's hard isn't the same as yesterdays. And the purpose may or may not be the same as it was.


    Just some thoughts as I am incredibly excited for The Spine UK in an way I can't quite describe or put my finger on.

    26 January 2026, 7:00 pm
  • 33 minutes 14 seconds
    Slow Down & Think; In Circles A Little Bit More

    Just some babble about not being so reactive with our opinions that it causes us to be irresponsible with our actions.

    19 January 2026, 3:00 am
  • 20 minutes 45 seconds
    Where Did All The Ladies & Gentlemen Go

    Maybe it's just that I'm getting old and out of touch. Maybe not.

    9 January 2026, 5:00 am
  • 34 minutes 22 seconds
    Power Outages, Being OK, & a Good Old Fashioned Apocalypse

    Happy New Year Everyone.


    Some thoughts leading into Christmas and the 2026 New Year.

    2 January 2026, 5:00 pm
  • 17 minutes 10 seconds
    Headphones & Anonymity

    The more I observe and talk about these things, the more I think I sound like my father.

    12 December 2025, 3:00 pm
  • 20 minutes 46 seconds
    36 Hour Fasts

    Sharing why I decided to start fasting once a week for 36 hours and where it took me.




    6 December 2025, 1:00 pm
  • 20 minutes 59 seconds
    Grape Thieves Suck

    I was checking in with myself around being so irritable, grumpy, negative, and complainy the past few days and made a commitment to auto-correct. Sharing my thought process and steps to unwind it all.

    It was working great until I went to Whole Foods...

    27 November 2025, 3:00 pm
  • 25 minutes 6 seconds
    Creating Culture

    I get asked quite a bit about how to create culture.

    The simple answer is you don't create it, you're living it.

    You don't start out with a blueprint of how to create a culture. You begin by living the values you've spent time thinking about and invested in upholding ruthlessly and consistently.


     

    21 November 2025, 1:00 pm
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