Free Spirit Academy Podcast
Rande Moss
Free Spirit Academy is about you being fully YOU. My name is Rande Moss and I'm an Eating Psychology Coach and Kundalini Yoga Teacher bringing you conversations about freedom from rigid diets and painful body image. This is about honoring our own bodies and our purest self-expression. Welcome to the podcast.
- 7 minutes 45 secondsHealing Doesn't Happen in a Hurry (the truth about emotional, compulsive, and binge eating)
Healing doesn't happen in a hurry. The hurry to be healed, integrated, enlightened, free, arrived...it's not as neat and tidy as a lot of self-help books or before-and-after photos might suggest.
It's more like, the harder we try to fix things, the harder our nervous systems work to keep us where things are familiar. Whereas, if we can slow down with ourselves, right in the behavior or with the part of us we hate or struggle with most, we can get to know it. There are often so many unknown steps in a healing process that we couldn't possibly plan them all out, let alone by a certain date. And often, the version of us that exists right here is the one most needing our acceptance and attention.
In this episode, I talk about the desperation and hurry I felt to "fix" my binge and emotional eating. I'll also share about the parts of myself I'd have missed meeting if the "hurry" had worked.7 September 2023, 10:00 pm - 16 minutes 59 secondsThe Top 10 Mistakes I Made On My Healing Journey.
THE TOP 10 MISTAKES I’VE MADE ON MY HEALING JOURNEY:
Honestly, I cringe a bit using the words "healing" OR "journey" because the internet is so oversaturated with wellness or spiritual teachers. I'm not interested in making "healing" my whole personality, but simultaneously I have always had this deep interest in why things hurt. What any kind of pain, emotional, mental, or physical, is saying. and coming from a background of religious and family trauma, being queer and undiagnosed neurodivergent, and all of the ways those pains spiraled out - into years of an eating disorder, self-harm, depression, anxiety, dissociation, and chronic health symptoms...I became fixated at some point on what it would take to feel free.
So whether I like the term or not, I found myself on a "healing journey" that I would say began when I got fired from my door to door missionary job and started removing myself from my church and toxic family patterns. I was in the thick of struggling with food and my body and had sooooo much accumulated trauma that it was just my "normal"...but taking those steps felt incredible. In fact, something I wish I could have told myself at various points is that there's no "heaven". There's no one point where all the things on all the levels are healed and you live happily ever after. Simultaneously, you don't have to WAIT until all the things on all the levels are healed to feel better.
Life, my body, my general state of being being better than they ever have been. As I thought back, I got to thinking about all the missteps and misunderstandings up until this point and I want to share them with you.
31 August 2023, 9:00 pm - 10 minutes 7 secondsMy Body is Not a Project | Solo Episode
I love a project. I love working towards something. I think that's pretty human. But for a long time my body was my project. I grew up in a holistic, Seventh-Day Adventist, vegetarian home. we used homeopathy and natural remedies and drank carrot juice and ate homemade bread. To this day I LOVE the taste of barley green powder because I have early memories of drinking it as something that would support my health. I wanted to know about all the supplements in the kitchen cupboard and what they would do for me. I wanted to be strong so I ate spinach straight out of the can. There was an early connection with the fact that what you eat has an impact on how you feel.
Simultaneously alongside all this, my relationship with food was kinda weird...
(Listen to this episode for more)13 July 2023, 8:00 pm - 14 minutes 8 secondsNavigating symptoms and flares without shame | Solo episode
So many folks I see, and this was me too, attach goodness and morality to their health. If something is wrong, they feel wrong. They will spin into stories about how they're creating their own disease or this is going to turn into something far worse. Can you make some space for the fact that not all of the contributing factors were in your hands? Your genetics, adverse childhood experiences, your environment and day to day stressors that accumulate.
There are areas where we have choice and can learn to be empowered...and there are factors we don't have control over. There are elements, like childhood trauma, that weren't our fault but that as adults we have quite a large degree of choice in how we address the effects. Having a sense of humor, when possible, can bring some lightness to what can be a serious and heavy healing process. Life is very short. Literally no amount of it needs to be spent beating yourself up anymore. That time would be better spent taking care of that part of you that so automatically goes into shame. Then, just coming back to what you best know works for you. again and again and again.6 July 2023, 11:00 pm - 11 minutes 43 secondsUnlearning shame after a lifetime of binge eating | Solo episode
Today I'm talking about the ways that shame lived in my body and fed into the cycle of binge eating and disembodied practices with food. I'll also talk about making my body safe enough to finally feel the shamed parts of me so that they could be understood and come to a more whole and free place.
29 June 2023, 11:00 pm - 19 minutes 26 secondsWhy I was numb and how I learned to feel again | Solo episode
For a huge chunk of my life, trauma had left me flat, numb, and unable to feel what was going on in my body.
In today's episode I talk about the seemingly "normal" experiences that can lead to an overwhelmed nervous system, the symptoms or carrying stored survival energy, impulses, and emotions with us over a long period of time, and the symptoms that can occur as a result.23 June 2023, 9:00 pm - 53 minutes 38 secondsFood is Medicine, But it isn't Everything with Sarah Hook
Today I'm speaking with Holistic Health and Root Cause Practitioner Sarah Hook. Sarah and I have been connected online since our early wellness blogging days when we were certain we had it all figured out. Some years ago Sarah was bit by a tick and developed severe Lyme disease, causing her to question what she knew about wellness.
We talk about what it's like to need food restrictions after healing from an eating disorder as well as the ways in which we can get in our own way with our attempts at healing.
I hope you enjoy and feel supported by this episode.
Links:
Sarah and The Healing Place on Instagram
Rande Moss Wellness
Free Spirit Academy Instagram
Free Spirit Academy Courses
The Feeling Files Podcast25 August 2022, 9:00 pm - 12 minutes 5 secondsChronic Illness, Healing Diets, & Disordered Eating | Solo Episode
Is it possible to take on a healing diet or a supportive protocol with a history of disordered eating?
Is there a way to have a healthy, alive relationship with food that's also intentional?
Is restriction 100% bad news in all cases?
Today I'm sharing my personal experiences with chronic illness, having a background of disordered eating from a young age. I'm excited to share this with you and hope it brings you more peace and freedom in your relationship with food and your body!9 November 2021, 11:00 pm - 12 minutes 23 secondsLoving Oneself through Chronic Illness | Solo Episode
On today's episode I'm talking a bit about the autoimmune diagnoses I got earlier this year. This is a shorty ep but includes:
...why it took me so long to see medical professionals and get tested.
...the wide range of feelings post-diagnosis.
...the pre-self-love I had to do before I had any answers.
...the promises I made myself once I had something concrete to work with.
...my thoughts on medication, etc.
...the complex journey that is illness and a disordered eating history.19 July 2021, 11:00 pm - 1 hour 7 minutesWhen Rebellion isn't Freedom | Lena Wegener
Hello friends, today I'm talking to my friend Lena, an eating disorder recovery coach who also understands firsthand months of juice fasting, pure raw food diets, and even using diet to heal illness - complicated by her many years of disordered eating that didn't stop once she got into raw foods. Throughout this conversation, we make some simple connections about how and why her eating disorder developed but there could certainly be many more factors one could look at.
- We'll discuss being raised in a religion that tells you if you're sick - there's something wrong with you or you're not praying hard enough.- The time Lena quit law school to move across the world and focus on detox work.
- the moment when she started realizing she was more interested in perfection than actual health - and more.
12 July 2021, 11:00 pm - 1 hour 1 minuteDoing Everything "Right" and Still Feeling Unwell | Theresa Piela
After well over a year, the Free Spirit Academy Podcast is BACK!
I begin this episode with a health update of my own - and talk about the balance between maintaining a peaceful relationship with food and my body, while also supporting my body's very specific needs.
That will lead us into a conversation with colon hydrotherapist and trauma-informed coach, Theresa Piela. Theresa is exceedingly familiar with chronic illness herself, and also knows well what it's like to do everything 'right' on a healing protocol and not feel any better. We talk about the importance of not only nourishing food but addressing nervous system trauma, painful beliefs, and tendencies towards perfectionism and orthorexia.
I'm so thrilled to be back with you in this capacity - there is so much more to come!
LINKS:
Living Roots Wellness
Living Roots Wellness Instagram
Theresa on Twitter
Theresa on YouTube
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